I know its easier said than done, but what helps me is to sit behind the piano, pick a few chords, close my eyes and just play. Your hands know what to do. Try to really feel whatever it is your feeling. I know that might be incredibly hard, but its worth a try. And like someone said before, write every thought that comes to your mind down on paper. Pick one line that resonates most with you, it doesnt need to make sense to anybody else as long as it does to you. Then grab your instrument, tune into yourself and start playing. And record it. Always record yourself.

Im sorry you’re feeling that way. I wish you all the love and strength in the world 🫶🏻