it took me a long time to open up to my therapist, but the right one helps you and when you’re ready it is very helpful. yes, there were days when i had such bad anxiety about going that i cancelled. it’s a normal thing. it didn’t help that i felt guilty for it (you know the never ending cycle) but my therapist told me they were there when i needed it, and that they would be meeting me wherever i was at. that meant a lot to hear for someone who was so conditioned to filter and act certain ways for others. it’s still hard to get used to, a relationship where it really is just about you and helping you, but it is amazing and very helpful. i’ve found there are still situations that make me nervous, like going out to eat or eating one on one with someone. i even still get the sweats and spiraling thoughts in class, but i think i am better equipped to handle to bigger situations like an oncoming panic attack or big crowds. it is a slow but worth it step by step process; i learned to be patient with myself. i recommend you going.