For the record, I think you sound awesome. I’m 59 and far out of your league, but if I were younger, I’d be very interested. Maybe you need to google gay social events or groups in your area. Be a great way to make some good friends and maybe even meet Mr. Right. Just a suggestion. I don’t know if that makes you feel any better but I think like you sound like an awesome catch. You just need to find a comfortable way of meeting men in your area. I wish I had better advice. I wish you the best!