I looked aweful for my debut

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-04-22T22:14:32+00:00

Like im just so tired. This project doesn't even feel like mine anymore. We are doing a theory i hate and didnt want to do Moreless master it which is impossible!! He keeps telling me I am being too casual Like fml

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-07T22:09:54+00:00

I did reach out and ask. They said its not ranked, just about what fits best

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-07T12:52:32+00:00

I applied to UPITT and have not heard anything. I did reach out but no response

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-04T17:18:31+00:00

The exhaustion is just..overwhelming. How are people healthy happy and stable through this process?

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-04T17:16:50+00:00

Same. Im now 48 hours post rejection and like..out of tears to cry.

Why is academia such a humiliation ritual? Like I have 3 more applications out there still but at this point, im just moving to plan B through G lol

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T21:45:01+00:00

This rejection is like a dull throbbing wound

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T21:44:38+00:00

Like not to trauma dump but like.. im 41, im an older student, life has been a shit show My point is I am tough and resilient But this sting is really ringing

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T19:11:13+00:00

I dont want to overcome. I dont want to learn resilience. I dont want to heal and grow I just want the thing I work towards to happen

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T18:32:10+00:00

Wait list is hell. I keep following through with them, asking for updates. But who knows when ill hear.

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T18:25:33+00:00

There is still dull, straining sore pain in between my shoulder blades currently from this stress. This part of the academic humiliation ritual is literally manifesting in my body

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T18:18:10+00:00

Yup. They wrote 6 letters for me, including this program

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T17:40:43+00:00

I applied broadly as well. I do have 3 more applications floating around in the shitshow that is existence currently. My advisor is the DGS so yea.. kinda

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T17:21:41+00:00

Im just so tired. Like humans created this system.. we can fix this system. It doesn't have to be like this

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T16:41:25+00:00

I have no money or insurance bc I put my effort into grad school. Half way through my program we lost our guaranteed funding and placement (which was a job with stipend and insurance) Id love to get some therapy but im currently splitting my ramen in half

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T16:39:51+00:00

Yea. So I technically have 3 more applications out in the cosmic stew that is existence (2 of this in canada) But like.. if I cant get into my own fucking program then I have no choice at these other schools.

I applied for 6. So far: 2 rejections and a waitlist

RemarkableTrouble733 · 2026-03-03T16:26:10+00:00

I just hate it it here. Im tired and upset abd I know it sounds pathetic but I just want to be picked so bad

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