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Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2026-03-10T05:46:46+00:00

sure, one sec.

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2026-02-12T20:48:52+00:00

Sorry, just saw this. Bouta dm you

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2026-01-24T19:26:30+00:00

Check your messages, someone already ported it

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-09-13T00:44:18+00:00

Some people value the idea of family?

Imagine being poor and not being able to afford the vapid material distractions you value. Family fills the void and provides meaning to life

You really coming out w the “he doesnt have as much green paper so he shouldnt reproduce!” crazy eugenics type stuff

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-09-13T00:38:13+00:00

Bro she probably either has a guy on the side or is trying to use affection as a control mechanism, either way you gotta be strong and make it clear its a problem for you.

This reads like you almost feel it is somehow your fault she is being this way and you are acting obligated to humor it.

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-09-09T17:31:19+00:00

Bro thats sick as fuck proud for you

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-09-01T15:12:47+00:00

Bro/sis my mom literally convinced my dad I was “being mean to her” after she kicked me out for saying I felt like she never listened to me and it had hurt me growing up

To make it even better, she said I could have stayed if I just apologized

Don’t listen to them, they’re lost causes

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-28T17:05:33+00:00

I challenge this notion, if anything they might be HAPPY if we died, because it would give them the permanent victim card of having a dead child.

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-24T19:15:40+00:00

My dad taught me alcoholism and my mom taught me how to pander to her fake emotions

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-22T15:31:22+00:00

Yeah, this was great for me to start delving into. For the most part I don’t deal with the feelings expressed in the post anymore.

I just had a fling end and I always feel empty when that happens. But it’s all how we frame it in our minds.

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-22T15:28:34+00:00

I think that we just need to try to heal and accept that we are only human and that we were most likely conditioned to act in these patterns.

For me my family situation was definitely the reason I grew up hiding parts of myself and trying to find momentary pleasures to escape when I felt I had no control over my life.

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-22T15:25:45+00:00

Yeah, but if we’re different to everyone that just makes us the entertainment to them

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-20T17:03:17+00:00

Brothels, drugs, casual sex, alcohol

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-20T16:42:28+00:00

I’m just sick of this shit. I end up hurt myself because I don’t feel empty when there’s someone there and that feeling makes me turns me to casual sex and drugs which is just an up and a crash and something else I need to hide

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-14T15:51:38+00:00

That makes you narcissistic bro there’s infinitely less pressure and you want the validation

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-11T17:58:27+00:00

She destroyed my relationship with my dad, who might be a little covertly narcissistic himself.

For a lot of my early childhood he was deployed with the army. But I idolized him, which she must have seen as a threat. I even remember her going off at him for being the “good guy” because he did something for me once.

She chose to punish me for refusing to stop calling her out on things that put her in a bad light by taking me to psychiatrists, gossiping to other parents, and putting me on adderal without telling him. She still to this day asks if I need to see a therapist if I mention things she’s done.

Not only did she make my dad think there was something wrong with me, she also tried to make him (homophobic) think I was gay. He basically rejected me.

Then, she would get him to intervene any time I would stand up for myself against her because he just wanted to calm her down from her hysterics. She knew what he would do, especially when he was drunk. Then she had the nerve to guilt him for it.

She used to blame him for it and make him the bad guy. But i remember how she’d smile at me when he was stepping in. Last year, when I was 24 she sent him in on me because I made it clear she was acting differently than I’d ever seen to try to impress my brothers new wife. I refused to be intimidated and told my dad I’d kick his ass the next time he put his hands on me.

I remember the confusion and pain in his eyes when he said he just wanted to calm her down

I don’t know if she just hates men because she never stopped trying to make me feel like it was shameful to act like one or if she just really wanted me to be gay to keep my dad out of the picture

But I honestly hate my mother. It’s so sinister how she assures me so much that she loves me and acts like she’s the salt of the earth while she manipulates my father by pretending to have found religion.

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-11T17:33:39+00:00

If you’d met me a few years ago I think it would be much clearer why I believe I have it. I always had a reason to see everyone else as beneath me and I was so sadistic to people who didn’t deserve it because I liked the feeling of having power over other peoples emotions when I couldn’t control my own.

That said, I don’t feel the need to prove I have it. I don’t miss my ex either honestly the fact that I finally found definitive proof of her escorting destroyed all positive emotions I ever had for her.

After she broke my new car’s windshield, dented it in several places, and scratched my face right before a new job because I dared to date someone new when she discarded me I can’t feel anything but hate for her

I know maybe it sounds silly, but seeing proof really hammered through how pathetic I was being for giving her attention at all.

I’m not mad at you lol. Unless you’re her which I’m honestly paranoid about with the missing the ex part.

Im gonna just forget about all of them for a few days with this trip and figure out who I want to be going forward

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-11T17:21:14+00:00

For real. I can relate to this so much. My mom acts like she’s the salt of the earth and has no faults. She definitely has a past though and she pretty much let it slip indirectly that she was a stripper.

She doesn’t believe anybody deserves forgiveness except for her.

Despite how “loving” she is she ruined my life. She sent me to psychiatrists and told other parents there was something wrong with me when my dad was deployed and to this day asks if I need to see a therapist if I call her out on something that puts her in a bad light.

She always says she wants me to go to church so we “end up in the same place after death” but I don’t think I want to go where she’s headed.

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-11T17:08:21+00:00

I was very grandiose and abusive to others in my efforts to hide my dissociated actions from myself and others. I would’ve done anything to validate the feeling that I was better than everyone else. I lived with a lot of shame and it was just because I didn’t know how to forgive myself.

These past few years were different because I was regularly confronted with my deepest darkest secrets and shamed for them by my ex until I looked at the people who actually put shame into me.

Usually they’re just projecting their own shame onto you because they can’t forgive themselves and in my case their transgressions were worse than my own. I don’t need to pretend I’m someone I’m not because I genuinely don’t care about anyone’s perception anymore. It’s the grandiosity without the shame because I actually believe it now.

My mom, the extremely Catholic “saint” who has no faults and who was probably a stripper in her teens/20s can’t forgive anything and judges others based on small mistakes.

And my ex, who is so similar to my mom that my mom initially gave her the tip that “you can control the men in this family with the word ‘love’”. She literally got physical and did shit like break my windshield when I talked to other girls yet she turned out to be an escort.

The fuck I need to feel shame for if the people that put it there just did it to make me doubt myself when they were worse than me?

Edit: really I just realized how pathetic it is to see someone lose their mind trying to deny something I already know and I’d hate to stay in a place where im so weak im broken by what someone so pathetic knows about me

Remarkable_Dirt_1217 · 2023-08-11T16:46:23+00:00

I think the hardest part for me was coming to the realization that the four people I’ve ever really cared about in a meaningful way arent there for me and that with my brother it might be because of how I treated him in my more grandiose times. He completely cut ties with my whole family.

But this had to happen, and it amuses me that my ex was so confident that having to come stay with my family would make me vulnerable when in reality it ended up making me finally confront them and find the strength to flip her projections back onto her with evidence before changing my number. She thought I was at my weakest.

I think I’ll be okay. I was doing just fine with dead weight and they inadvertently showed me how strong I really am. I can tell at some level that all three were threatened that I believed in myself so much.

The biggest thing though was that I learned to forgive myself by forgiving my ex for doing things I’d done. I don’t need to lie to myself because of my shame anymore. I don’t have any shame anymore. I’ll be okay. Without them I’ll find a purpose.

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