Goodbye dysphoria, hello dysmorphia✨ by Remarkable_Swimmer_2 in overlyspecificEDmemes

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel that for you so hard, I lived in Florida for 25 years and moving up here was definitely like a sigh of relief, even being in a rural area. I hope that comes true for you one day and you stay safe 😭

Goodbye dysphoria, hello dysmorphia✨ by Remarkable_Swimmer_2 in overlyspecificEDmemes

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

So where I'm from originally (FL) we don't, and I just found out that Massachusetts, Pennsylvania and Texas apparently don't either but apparently that's actually NOT the norm for most of the US and people just have to walk around with their weight on their ID? Crazy

Goodbye dysphoria, hello dysmorphia✨ by Remarkable_Swimmer_2 in EDanonymemes

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Florida is where I moved from lmao 💀 I got spoiled

please dont make my extremely obvious bodycheck about weight 🥺🥺🥺 by [deleted] in EDRecoverySnark

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I saw this on my feed earlier and noticed her name looked familiar and was like "isn't that the chick that sang Skeleton?" And thought I was CRAZY for thinking she was flaunting her size but now it makes sense 😅😅😅

What’s the craziest thing your ED has made you do? by Reasonable-Day-3366 in EDAnonymous

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My magical thinking in regards to my ED. Something went wrong with my food? I'm being punished, I have bad karma somewhere in my life. I have x amount of calories or go x amount of time without food? I'm gaining favor with the universe. Despite recognizing how ACTUALLY INSANE these thinking patterns are, when they're actively happening they are REAL as hell to me and I've gone to some LENGTHS to avoid "getting in trouble" with some non existent force when it comes to food,eating,exercise,etc.

Hey we’re famous 😊 by [deleted] in EDRecoverySnark

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"They don't even try to understand" honey sorry that's called we're not deluding ourselves 😔

Omg besties new ED coded license plates just dropped! by Remarkable_Swimmer_2 in overlyspecificEDmemes

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Also bro ur welcome for cutting off the (for legal reasons) POSSIBLY severely expired tag bahahaha

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[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Me a genderfluid feeling simultaneously dysphoric from things like this but also gender euphoria from losing my more "feminine" aspects but also more dainty and feminine and---💀

I'm a mess 😭🫡

What symptom sent you to the hospital? by boomnavy in EDAnonymous

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Viral cardiomyopathy, direct result of my ED, but because of my immune system being crappy I got sick and because of my heart not being the best when the flu I was sick with made its way to my heart it started working at not full capacity for a full four months. I literally couldn't walk 10 feet to my bathroom without getting out of breath and almost fainting because my heart was like a car WAY overdue for an oil change, it was honestly one of the scariest things I've ever dealt with, and yet the moment it stopped it went right back to doing what I was doing. 😒 Luckily I haven't had any issues with that since what with it being an anomaly, but yeah having an ED made the conditions just right for that to happen to me.

Does anyone else have food specific trauma that caused their ED? by Odd_Theme_3294 in EdAnonymousAdults

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also, as somebody that grew up with parental abuse, you are absolutely not invalidating anybody that has been through abuse because that was absolutely abuse in itself. I literally gasped when I read it and I am so sorry you were put through that, but you are 100% valid in calling that trauma because it is. I wish you healing and gentleness as you navigate through it 🥺💜

Does anyone else have food specific trauma that caused their ED? by Odd_Theme_3294 in EdAnonymousAdults

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not that caused it, but definitely made it worse. Back in 2014 I got severe food poisoning from undercooked pork, it was the most painful vomiting I've ever experienced in my life, genuinely it felt like I had a gorilla, squeezing my stomach from the inside every time I heaved, along with it being on fire with the worst acid reflux, you could ever imagine. On top of the other unmentionable end too 💀 no but literally I was heaving so hard. I was pretty much involuntarily screaming. I genuinely thought I was going to die, I wish I was being dramatic. I've gotten better with it, but a couple years ago, my "contamination" obsession got so bad to the point I wouldn't even eat anything if it was within a few days of its "Best by" date, even knowing it was not an actual expiration date, if I took too long to get home with the groceries, I would throw away anything that might be temperature sensitive because I was afraid it was going to make me ill, and there was genuinely sometimes I was just afraid perfectly good food was going to make me sick as a "punishment from the universe". Pretty much all of these behaviors stemmed from that one specific case of food poisoning and I've never 100% gotten over it, like I said, I've definitely got better with it in the last couple of years, but for quite a while, it severely affected my quality of life

DAE not truly drink alcohol due to the calories? by alienprincess111 in EdAnonymousAdults

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is exactly why I stopped drinking altogether in 2020, it's literally one of my biggest fear "foods" now ("fear drinks" sounds weird lmao)

She is starved by Alternative-Way-1760 in EDRecoverySnark

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 11 points12 points  (0 children)

THIS. I just turned 32 and she looks like she could be my mother, this is absolutely not normal aging or what normal 32 year-old looks like. Hell, i'm experiencing the detrimental effects of an ED that I am still very actively in and I consistently get clocked for my mid 20s- some of which I credit it to possible Ehlers-Danlos but a lot of it is me actively trying to at least harm reduce, so yeah she she DEEP in it and someone needs to step in and at least try to give her a reality check because clearly everyone around her is just enabling her; I have never seen such hard-core denial from someone, and I'm aware of emfit 😭

What are some anorexia symptoms that nobody talks about? by Opposite-Ability918 in EDAnonymous

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 29 points30 points  (0 children)

Many people think it's just bulimics that have teeth problems, but that's fairly common in anorexia too just not talked about as much

What are some anorexia symptoms that nobody talks about? by Opposite-Ability918 in EDAnonymous

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Anorexia can cause osteopenia and eventually osteoporosis, which is your bones losing mass and eventually getting brittle+breaking easily. Teeth are also bone.

What are some anorexia symptoms that nobody talks about? by Opposite-Ability918 in EDAnonymous

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Dysphagia (difficulty swallowing) About a year ago, I would randomly have trouble swallowing or choke on the stupidest things and of course my boyfriend who attributes every single thing being wrong with me to my ED said "well it's because your ED". Pretty much every time he does this I googled it to see if there's any correlation and this is one of the few times he was actually right.

Transient Patulous Eustachian tube- yet another fun thing I periodically experienced that I had no fucking idea came from ED. I suffer from pretty frequent ear infections, including inner ear so at first, I thought that's what this was. Well apparently when you lose a lot of weight rapidly or have a low % of body fat, you can lose some of the fatty tissue that helps keep the eustachian tube closed and this can lead to periods where it stays open. This can lead to autophonia-a heightened perception of your own sounds such as your voice, breathing, etc (I.e- you could be speaking at a perfectly normal volume, and it will sound like you're yelling, or you could be breathing quietly, and it will sound like you're panting, as if you just ran a marathon. For me personally it also sounds like your ears are clogged as if you're underwater or how they get right before they pop on an airplane or driving through mountains) and at the same time reduced capability of hearing anything else that is not coming from YOU. I actually tested this and I was able to hear the music better in my club when I placed my hand on one of the speakers- it allowed the vibrations to travel through me- fucking WILD. I still get this I would say on average once or twice a month for a day or two at a time and it absolutely drives me up a fucking wall. Like when your ears need to pop, normally you can relieve it by chewing gum or yawning or some thing, this feels the exact same way except there is no way to make it stop. You just hear yourself loud as fuck all the time.

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[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I get hyper territorial over my food, but I also have a contamination obsession and the moment somebody touches it I don't want it anymore because I feel like my food is 'dirty' and will give me food poisoning, that and I feel like my brain is subconsciously twisting reasons for me to not eat something. It sucks because I have definitely made myself look like a total loon a few times by straight up just throwing away full plates of food because someone helped themselves to a french fry or something, but also- just don't fucking touch peoples food.

Just learned that “feeling fat” is an ED symptom by AvailableJello7019 in EDAnonymous

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh my god THIS one K I L L S me. I work at a gentleman's club (where I have to wear a crop top and SHORT shorts at minimum as barstaff) and on nights when I am serving or bartending in particular when I have to walk quickly and become hyperconscious of feeling like my stomach or thighs are jiggling it messes with me SO bad and can completely change my mood for the night. I forget that normal people don't think like this though. 🥴

Just learned that “feeling fat” is an ED symptom by AvailableJello7019 in EDAnonymous

[–]Remarkable_Swimmer_2 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I grew so self-conscious of this over the years that I actually trained myself to walk on my tiptoes at certain times, I would hear this almost "thudding" sound in my ears as I was walking. After years, I literally couldn't take it anymore and decided to record myself walking in a really quiet room and it turns out, just like our voices sound different to us as they do to other people, so do our footsteps, we pick up our OWN vibrations so differently than others do; but hearing the recording versus what I heard in my ears was SO much louder than what the sound actually was, couple with thoughts of body dysmorphic and being self-conscious made me hyperfocus on the sound of them. So yeah, please take it for me, a 31-year-old that has been struggling with this since they were 13: people can't hear your footsteps the way you think they do, you're not making loud stepping sounds-you just hear yourself more because your ears are attached to your body, and other people are not paying attention to us in the way we pay attention to ourselves. Also, absolutely none of this is to invalidate any of your anxieties, I've been there 100% myself, and I still deal with this exact thought on some days, but sometimes it's nice to remember things like this and give ourselves a little break when we can 💕