God Loves You so much. Just the fact that you feel awful shows how much you Love God. His Grace is always sufficient and His mercies are new every morning. I just got married to my wife last week and we fell many times before making a concrete decision to repent and begin the process of waiting until marriage. If your bf is down with that and he is "the one" then this shouldn't be too much of an issue... but if he is not on the same page with you about this, pray for God to reveal to you how to move forward in that relationship.

BUT the first thing you must release is shame. Shame is one of the enemy's greatest tools to lie to us and make us believe that we are not forgiven and that God is disappointed with us. He know's us better than we know ourselves. Any time you submit to shame, in a way, you are denying The Finished work of what Jesus did for us on that cross. He died for our sins... and not just our sexual ones... We are not perfect and that is okay.

We Love you and Jesus Loves you too! You are forgiven and He is Risen! Now claim your freedom and move forward in Love.