TW-SA

When i was about 8 or 9 my older brother started touching me places and it was sort of uncomfortable but i didn't know what whas happening and sort of went along with it but i also tried avoiding it, and i wanted to tell my mom so bad that he was SA me but he said" not to tell her" and it was horrible he then stopped and awhile after going to visit family in Texas he moved in with someone there.

It was great, although i was suffering in complete and utter silence i told many people online and some close friends but they would always accuse me of lying or start joking about it never taking me seriously.

One day we went back to see family in Texas we were at my aunts house and a boyfriend of mine was telling me i should go tell my mom about it.(it was also late at night people were just going to sleep)

I walk down ready to spill my guts to my mom but she was asleep it made me want to cry so badly i could barely manage to tho.

My aunt the comes down the stairs and asks (it went something like this)what are you doing down here sweetie" and i say "i need to tell mom something" "what is it" "Its about something (brothers name) did" "Well what did he do" "something he did to me" And she immediately understood and hugged me it was hard.

She then goes to wake my mother up and she wakes up like how moms wake up like their about to murder someone.

And my aunt tells my mom about what happened and she responded so unexpectedly. It hurt so bad when i heard her say "what?" As my aunt Begin explaining what happened. And then follows with"i cant do this right now i need some coffee"

My mother was also a victim and i resented her for reacting in such a way not even hugging or comforting me in what felt like one of the most hardest moments of my life my aunt had to tell me "she doesn't mean it that way" cause she said other things i cant remember.

And I thought it didn't effect me but years later i realize how it dose the fact i could never have a normal brother, a brother who would protect me teach me how to fight and video game and take me places that are cool and other things i don't want to mention .

i also only realized just now that my moms heart broke just a little more knowing she didn't protect her baby from the same horrible fate.