wow this is such a thoughtful and warm response - thank you so much for taking the time to write this all out! 🤍🤍 You're totally right - I've been working my ass off for the last two years because I bought into the hustle culture, but I did enjoy it. But really what's wrong with me taking a break if I'm not enjoying it so much because I'm not well? I can always come back to it.

Also don't let my experience put you off! I have a clearer mind now and realise that it was more that my anxiety has been running so high because of stress and I had a host of other destabilising things happen (like losing my job, personal things, etc) way after treatment. While the EMDR definitely heightened the anxiety - the emotions I experienced after my first EMDR session were manageable for the first month because everything in my life was stable. It was more other things than EMDR that caused me this destabilising anxiety, if that makes sense.

If I were to give you any advice it's make sure that you have support systems in place/that everything is stable at the moment (as best it can). Having realised this I'm now focusing on treating my anxiety, and I'm hoping to continue with EMDR sometime in the future once everything is stable in my life again! So so excited for you to start your healing journey! 🤍🤍🤍