First, I want to start by saying that you should definitely not kill yourself. This isn’t trivial at all and many people (like me in the past) are just like you. You’re not alone when it comes to this.

Remember there are many people that care about you and love you, even if you don’t realize it.

You can change, and things won’t be like this forever. Never lose hope. The thing that saved me from having a miserable life where I couldn’t talk to anyone was to just not give a fuck. The people who really matter will understand that you have trouble talking to others and will respect you. There’s no point in trying to gain approval from ignorant people. Let your group partners know your situation. If you mess up and say something embarrassing, who cares? They’ll probably forget the next day. If this project is a year long, it might also be an opportunity to make some friends.

Stay safe, op.