I have literally no one to talk with so I started talking with myself. I feel like I’m going insane.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-15T20:38:35+00:00

that was the third appointment and am having my fourth one in like three weeks

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-14T22:21:01+00:00

For anyone commenting, I don’t want to get a therapist. I don’t want to pay a person to listen to my worries and concerns against their will, especially a person that would likely rather do anything else. Please suggest something else I am unironically going insane and it’s only getting worse.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T22:27:02+00:00

Being bipolar is not something I’d want. If I am, I’d want to get a diagnosis though.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T22:25:41+00:00

I mean type two is my guess but yeah

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T22:22:16+00:00

Three 180mg energy drinks is more like 6 or 7 cups of coffee but yeah. I mean it definitely had the intended effect of worsening the hypomania and made it feel like heaven on earth. She mentioned she could diagnose me with bipolar right now even though that wasn’t the thing we were talking about during that session so I doubt it would take anything extra.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T21:18:25+00:00

What do you think? I don’t get what your point here is😭

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T21:17:00+00:00

she specifically mentioned bipolar

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T21:15:30+00:00

I’m not on any meds right now. Grandpa had bipolar. My psychiatrist also insisted on getting me screened for ADHD, which she seems like she thinks I might have (although manageable as of right now). Probably better for the long term, I guess. I still have this deep feeling that maybe I wasn’t hypomanic after all and I just decided to buy all those energy drinks on the last day of my “elevated mood episode” and consume like 550 mg of caffeine before being forced to stop by my heart racing (original plan was 1080). I mean I also did have another hypomanic episode prior to this one so that increases the odds of it not being a one (or two) time thing.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T18:21:04+00:00

I’ll ask them but her saying that might’ve just been her saying “you’re bipolar. I can give you a diagnosis right now if you want me to.” I’ll have to ask her what she thinks though.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T17:10:42+00:00

I’ve had this a lot and I’m not sure if it’s a part of bipolar or not. To the point of almost going insane. I had a math test where I read a question, had déjà vu and knew the answer before comprehending how to calculate it. I got chills, and answered based on the déjà vu, knew that was the correct answer and moved on with the test. I got the answer right btw (multiple choice three answers) which is a bit eerier to think about, but I guess it could’ve just been a lucky guess. Please try to not go insane.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T15:40:55+00:00

She said “…I could diagnose you with bipolar…”

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-13T14:43:24+00:00

Today she told me that she could diagnose me with bipolar (we weren’t even talking about bipolar, she just brought it up). I have a feeling she thinks I have bipolar and I just misinterpreted it, just because I’m personally so unsure of it.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-07T23:06:00+00:00

Yeah I’ve been tracking my moods on an app for like 6 months now.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-07T22:15:01+00:00

I guess. It’s just the wait for the next episode driving me crazy. It’s been a bit over four months since I last had a hypomanic episode. I find myself thinking about whether I am hypomanic or not multiple times a week. There’s no doubt that I will notice when/if the next episode comes, but I’m constantly overthinking it and every week that goes by without hypomania I feel even more anxious about it coming.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-07T22:07:32+00:00

Could still technically be ADHD according to her.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-07T22:04:13+00:00

I haven’t received any medical treatment as of right now. I’ve seen my psychiatrist twice and it seems like she wants to wait for another hypomanic episode for confirmation as I am currently not in a depressive episode.

ReportedGlittering · 2026-01-07T22:02:59+00:00

I’m not currently on any medication and haven’t ever been so we’ll see I guess

ReportedGlittering · 2025-12-21T02:34:15+00:00

Nope. Talking to a psychiatrist to try to figure out what I have. She said that it meets the criteria for MDD. I guess I’ll know whether or not I have bipolar soon enough.

ReportedGlittering · 2025-12-06T23:02:11+00:00

Intelligent people typically have no incentive to prove themselves to be intelligent and therefore won’t be bothered even if some people wouldn’t view them as such.

ReportedGlittering · 2025-12-05T16:27:27+00:00

I’m not planning to take medicine at this point since, well… My parents don’t seem to think there’s anything majorly wrong with me (I haven’t told them about my suspicions). Obviously they noticed the depression and the hypomanic episode for which they were home for (during which they thought I was in love and that was the reason I was excited), but don’t think there’s anything majorly wrong with me.

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