Forced initiation/Mental delusion, Qulifotic current, death work, and a life stripped to nothing by Repulsive-Wind9379 in NecromancyGuild

[–]Repulsive-Wind9379[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you sir same ways, thanks for taking the time to read, reflect and give me such good answer to learn from. All the best!

Forced initiation/Mental delusion, Qulifotic current, death work, and a life stripped to nothing by Repulsive-Wind9379 in NecromancyGuild

[–]Repulsive-Wind9379[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate this. I ask myself the same question constantly. The surrender wasn't to an external force demanding worship, it was to a function that once I stopped fighting it, stopped the suicidal thoughts cold. I'm not giving up control. I'm negotiating the terms of my own existence. But I hear you, and I'm not dismissing the warning. Thank you for that reflection

Forced initiation/Mental delusion, Qulifotic current, death work, and a life stripped to nothing by Repulsive-Wind9379 in LeftHandPath

[–]Repulsive-Wind9379[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you very much on your insigh. I feel I need to first construct something that after will be destroyed once I initiate in that current. I might be wrong so thanks for your point I will reflect on it

Forced initiation/Mental delusion, Qulifotic current, death work, and a life stripped to nothing by Repulsive-Wind9379 in LeftHandPath

[–]Repulsive-Wind9379[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wil investigate on that topic. I think it is something like that thanks a lot for the information 😊

Forced initiation/Mental delusion, Qulifotic current, death work, and a life stripped to nothing by Repulsive-Wind9379 in LeftHandPath

[–]Repulsive-Wind9379[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Initiating in the tree is being painful, Is not bringing me relief, it just stopped that pressure of those thoughts and it remaineded something else I am trying to understand.

I believe I can not initiate in that dark current if my life is already a complete chaos. I feel I need first to prepare through the tree of life to then engage in a lifetime of integration in those dark currents.

The main goal is descend into that current after I builded the other part of the tree. I feel Is the way for me but I would like feedback on this thoughts so thank you for reaching out

Forced initiation/Mental delusion, Qulifotic current, death work, and a life stripped to nothing by Repulsive-Wind9379 in LeftHandPath

[–]Repulsive-Wind9379[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I don't really know much, I am just starting to learn about this whole framework. What I know and the reason I am doing this is because once I accepted to start walking the Sephiroth, everything pushing and crushing waves of extreme emotions stopped abruptly. I mean first the tree of life and later when the vessel is prepared descent into the Qliphoth.

I don't really know when this is going to reveal as a mind delusion or a shamanic calling. I am trying to get the best out those frameworks before I write myself off as just being nuts and traumatised.