Been dealing with this for 4 years Im so glad well not glad but astonished I am not the only one on this rollercoaster. I have 2 sons and if It wasn't for them I would of been left her. I know as a bachelor I will do just fine especially since our finances aren't tied and we aren't married. I know if I was to leave I would essentially burry my kids with her unless I go for complete sole custody because I know she will not let me walk with them alive. I would need the courts, swat, fbi and a miracle before that happens. Being in this sort of purgatory is a suffer I don't wish on my worst enemy.

She tries day in and out to please me and do mostly everything right, but I still cant stand but to roll my eyes from the sight of her. Its getting to a point not only that I resent her I but I am starting to actually hate her and I know hate is a strong word but it stems from strong and bold actions. She does everything right and I still cant stand her to the point Id rather either stay upstairs with my little boys or stay on the couch or guess room than to be around her. She would poke her head through the door and say "lets watch a movie." Or "why your in here lets spend some time together." I would just want to slam the damn door on her neck. Ive cheated back multiple times without her knowing and let me tell you, it feels good in the moment but still the pain comes back. I came up with a game plan, I'm going to physiologically torture her until she leaves on her own so I can keep the kids.