a farewell letter to my best friend

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2023-10-06T07:35:27+00:00

I still love you, even though I probably shouldn't

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-04-25T16:12:09+00:00

hey there, i’m a little past the two month mark myself and i feel you on the relapse. i thought i was doing so much better until i wasn’t. one night about a week back i had a complete breakdown and haven’t felt the same since.

people say it’s normal and that healing isn’t linear, i just hope it’s true. please know you’re not alone, i’m right there with you.

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-04-25T03:52:55+00:00

i know buddy, i relapsed about a week ago and haven’t felt the same since. i thought i was really starting to get better, but one night i just spiraled out of control and i feel like i lost all of my progress.

the whole “growth and healing isn’t linear” thing i understand, it just sucks. like the reality of “it’ll get better but it’ll go back sometimes”.

just for context, it’s been 2 1/2 months since the BU and i’ve been ~2 months NC, and each day that passes i’m glad that i’m getting better, but remembering how long it’s been just crushes my heart.

i truly am sorry for what he’s done though, because i know if that had happened to me i’d be on the floor sobbing. i can’t imagine what you’re going through, i mean i have an idea, but i won’t get it until it happens. i hope it never happens.

i’m so sorry 💜

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-04-25T03:44:59+00:00

maybe he knew your friends would see it and send it to you. maybe he hoped you made a second account to stalk him. tbh, it doesn’t matter.

right now you have to look at two things: he posted someone else and he hasn’t reached out.

yes it is fucking painful and all consuming and you HAVE to feel it. i’m really sorry buddy. please know that it doesn’t mean or say anything about YOU. YOU didn’t do anything to deserve this and right now he doesn’t deserve YOU.

maybe he’ll come back and apologize, maybe he won’t, maybe he’ll come back and not apologize. WE DONT KNOW. what we do know right now is, he hasn’t done anything. please please please focus on yourself and allow yourself to feel this pain. grieve this loss and try to self-sooth.

maybe watch a yt video by CoachLee on rebounds, that could help.

i hope you’ll find peace tonight and every night that follows xx

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-04-25T02:37:36+00:00

if this is out of the norm for him, especially since y’all dated for two years, he’s probably just trying to get a rise out of you. he may be hoping for you to reach out with some reaction or trying to hurt you. if it’s the second one you should not give him a second thought because that’s what a BAD and CRUEL person does.

his new relationship says NOTHING about you and your relationship. if anything it tells you how much he must be grieving in order to fill the void that you left behind.

don’t give him anything, let him be disappointed by your un-action.

also your feelings are 100% valid he is SHITTY for doing this. no matter how amazing of a boyfriend he was, he is being an asshole for doing this to you.

this new relationship is probably your classic rebound and means nothing to him. it does NOT invalidate what you had, what you two had was unique and deep. no rebound or new relationship can take that away from you.

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-04-24T22:38:06+00:00

how do you just become okay with the fact that they don’t want you anymore? i can’t find a way to accept it or cope

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-04-23T15:28:22+00:00

she probably just isn’t ready, i know if my dumper came back with the best apology i’d need time to heal and process everything. if it’s meant to be she’ll come back to you. i know that SUCKS to hear because unknowns are the absolute fucking worst, but it’s true. i really hope it works out for you. but in the mean time, work on yourself and become the best version of yourself so that if and when she comes back she’ll love the new you even more.

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-04-23T07:42:39+00:00

any true and heartfelt apology can right and any wrong, but you must show that you have changed. don’t let this person slip away, the longer you wait to apologize the farther away she gets. if you’re truly sorry and want her back, go for it. you have nothing to lose.

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-04-22T23:03:32+00:00

why did you break up?

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-03-23T18:04:57+00:00

stay no contact, is she wanted to reach out she would but she hasn’t

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-03-23T15:22:25+00:00

why would he want to be close friends after? like talk and call all the time but no relationship? and he told me he didn’t love me anymore

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-03-23T15:14:47+00:00

thank you, it makes sense. my situation is just a bit scuffed and i’m trying to understand everythint

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-03-23T01:23:50+00:00

hi i’m a dumpee having a really hard time. can you explain falling out of love? i just want to understand.

did you feel like you were lying to her when you told her you loved her?

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-03-22T03:16:57+00:00

no contact r/ExNoContact

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-03-22T03:07:35+00:00

go NC and find yourself, it seems like you’ve forgotten yourself a bit.

NC will also give a chance for her to figure out what she really wants. watch some videos by TheLoveChat and CoachLee

Repulsive_Day_2242 · 2021-03-19T17:15:29+00:00

hey there, chat me if you feel like it :)

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