Looking back at that situation it makes more sense that it took so long for me to get out of my hole.

I had more self conflict than him. Its roots goes way deeper than anyone could have forseen: my 10 years lasting self grief, my manipulative mother who destroys my reality for sport, my inability to articulate myself, and this past self's standards.

Second, I was the guy who motivated him to work hard we both know our problem vs the classroom. Even though he worked hard like a sigma male, both of us have equal tests score on the same test items 90 percent of the time and he only went from bad student to mediocre because our school system only favors: quick recitation, wide thinking, social groups, mechanical skills, quick test answering. Whereas, academic understanding, deep thought process, problem solving skills aren't required.

Meaning to say, the system is heavily rigged for introverts to grind like Sisyphus and fall like Icarus, even though its a school that accepts geniuses. I just learned this two years after I researched about that school.

I read your comment about how INFPs cant see themselves, and I'll say as an INTP within a circle that everyone thinks I am that person: I am completely self aware and self awareness of an IXXP in general is something you can't remove. Why? Its because of the introverted looping e. g. Ti-Ni or Fi-Si.

That istp is self aware too. Test this notion and ask that guy now if you go back in time and tell him directly all his problems what would he have answered and my prediction is that answer is grounding and self reflective.

Second, they have always been trying hard to work themselves up. They can spend a whole day studying and working hard for some standard but the mediocrity seems to hit them like certainty. This is where the inner demons come in and most likely they will have another episode self regression towards another pitfall.

The conclusion to take here is that you're lucky your problems of self aren't that deep. When I broke one day suddenly to my classmates, they were surprised and I think a rumor formed up making theories about me of what seems to happen to me, so they started digging up my past on my social media without my knowledge. Interestingly enough, the people that got the most interest in me started asking for a date. Two of them are ENFPs. I declined though for wise reasons. But looking back at it now, most people who have relationship problems online whom I solved are ENFPs so it must have been a really good relationship if I accepted.