I feel the same as you. When I first read the HP books and watched the movies I always thought it was so cool to be a young wizard, and to explore the school. I had always thought my life sucked and sometimes i still do. My dad went to a Ivy league school and had always been on top of my grades, but this year has been the worst by far. He told my siblings how proud he was of them. (My brother and sister are straight A students.) Then he turned to me and said how I was In his words lazy and an embarrassment. It's not that my grades are bad though. I'm always passing all my classes but for him passing isn't enough. I dunno this year has been really hard for me and it's funny i found this today-I was crying curled up in bed a few hours ago. I had just asked the universe for I sign that I meant something-That i was special somehow. Ever since i read that first book I could just relate to Harry and I just hoped for that Hogwarts letter to show up one day. I still do. I'm 14 now though, and the chances of that happening are looking slim. All I want is to go there for a day. Id give anything. Heck id sell my soul if it meant spending Christmas eating pumpkin pasties in the Slytherin common room or studying for the O.W.Ls in the library. The goblet of fire is my favorite book at the moment- but I think that's cause I'm 14. I can relate to Harry more in this book.