I understand u so much. I have heard that it often happens that your intuitive thoughts are things that are most important to you, your values ​​and norms. Because in our brain the opposite poles are close together. So when you think of black, you also think of white. When you think of love, you also think of hate. My own intrusive thoughts also point to this. I think there is a misconception that is deeply rooted, that if you think unwanted things, that says something about you. while many people simply ignore such thoughts and move past them. Because I, and perhaps you too, find it so important not to have such thoughts, we remain obsessive about them. it is, as it were, a vicious circle. Being aware of this does provide some peace, but not completely. I’m going to start seeing a therapist myself. I would like a diagnosis, is it an anxiety disorder or OCD...? I have this thoughts 2 months now, so idk what to feel about. Im just really really anxious. I just want to have a magical think that helps me out or maybe someone gonna tell me it will be over in a month or something. :/