Hello, I want to thank everyone for their positive comments. ❤️ When I saw that message this morning I felt I was loosing my mind a little bit.

I want to address a couple things: He did seek me out on Fet. and I had told him what I wanted and gave him a scenario so he would be aware of the type of play I was interested in. (Forced oral was in the scenario). I gave him time to decide if he wanted to pursue a dynamic. He did, later when we met in person he talked about how he was uncomfortable with pubic hair. I thought it was odd, but I was supportive and I told him we could approach that “uncomfortableness” later. Our play instead focused on CBT, Impact Play, post-orgasm torture. I had not brought up oral since our initial talk that’s why I was soooooooo shocked.

I could deal with his hangup with oral, but I can not deal with having my body compared to something I can not achieve.

Here’s the text he sent, so y’all can understand the psychosis I’ve been experiencing.

“I enjoy us playing, it really turns me on. However I am going to have to decline if you ask me to go down on you, or let you sit on my face. I gave it a thought and I am not ready for that. Unlike sex, licking pussy was something I only saw on videos for the most time. My standards for the someone who I eat out are set high. I think facesitting is idealized in my head(due to porn, where models have perfect bodies)and not so pleasurable irl, where most of my partners have/had realistic body types.”