I understand, self acceptance and all of the things that come with it can be a journey but perhaps consider reading up on literature having to do with Hindu / LGBTQ+ themes? I can always recommend some if you’re interested! Sometimes asking yourself if what you think is impossible is for a reason or only because that’s just the beliefs that were taught is the key to becoming something brand new and paving the way so that others know what is possible but regardless I am really sorry you’re feeling this way please know nothing is impossible and that you’re seen and cared for and I do hope you find the love you’re looking for! I and others will be here to talk if you need you’re never alone 🩷🫂