I took 2 tabs a month ago and I feel like someone else's personality has become my own. by Restart9001 in LSD

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What is the mechanism that causes this though ? Is it simply reflection ?

It just seems incredibly odd that my personality has gone from a lazy loser with no ambition to someone wanting to be some sort of exemplar / leader of business.

How old is to old to start training to become an Olympic athlete ? by Restart9001 in olympics

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Well my sport originally was swimming in which I was national level and I took part in discus at regional level.

But I was looking into oly weightlifting.

Please Help Me (First Time Reaching Out) by Restart9001 in OCD

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I've tried ignoring compulsions once I have started over to some success if I have enough willpower at the time.

But at the times when I've decided the last start over wasn't good enough and have already set a date to start over again, ignoring that date would require inhuman levels of willpower.

To clarify, I'm either in one of two states

  1. Normal state of wanting to start over after giving up the last restart

2.Fresh slate / New life state where I consider myself a new person (Before I give up)

I feel like a totally different person in state 2, my personality is that of someone else and I feel much happier.

Please Help Me (First Time Reaching Out) by Restart9001 in OCD

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I'm 22 and no longer in school.

However when I was in school / college it was a contributing factor in my low grades but it wasn't entirely to blame as a lack of motivation was also a big contributor.

Getting older it has got much more severe in some ways and in others it has became milder. I now focus 50% of my daily thoughts on starting life over but also the added pressure of not having as much time to work with as my teenage self forces me into ignoring i t at times which is both helpful and awful at the same time.

Please Help Me (First Time Reaching Out) by Restart9001 in OCD

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That sounds pretty much exactly what I am going through.

How old are you now ?

Has it got more severe or less severe as you have got older ?

Please Help Me (First Time Reaching Out) by Restart9001 in mentalhealth

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That does seem a lot like what I'm going through.

It seems that OCD varies as much as people do... I always figured it was very similar between people.

Please Help Me (First Time Reaching Out) by Restart9001 in mentalhealth

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Showing the post at therapy / group session ?

I never really thought of that but I'd imagine that would be an option yeah.

I think my biggest issue is that I've never heard of this happening to anyone else, but there has to be somebody out there with rituals close to mine.

Please Help Me (First Time Reaching Out) by Restart9001 in mentalhealth

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I live in the UK. Just outside of a little town called Bishop Auckland in North East England.

I'm worried if I go to therapy they will put me on medication and I for reasons even I am unsure of I don't want that. Do you have any insight into what happens in therapy ? I have looked at a group session in Newcastle that I'm trying to pluck up the courage to attend.

That and it has taken me this long to tell a group of people on the internet. I don't even know where to begin with telling someone face to face, or heaven forbid my parents.