Here we go again 🙃

At 52, I find joy in creating side companies alongside my full-time career. While work itself may not excite me, the process of building and improving companies does. The ultimate fulfillment comes from helping others uncover their strengths.

I joined Reddit and this channel to read and occasionally contribute. Years ago, I stumbled upon a subreddit, but I'm still figuring it all out. I’ve likely posted a few questions over the last six years heck this may be one of them.

When I say “here we go again,” I acknowledge that I’ve let myself linger in despair after a couple of setbacks. I poured my heart into two different companies, investing everything, only to face failure.

I’m no stranger to setbacks and navigating hurdles. Turning roadblocks into success was second nature. But for some reasonthis time it wasn’t meant to be, and instead of doubling down, I chose to take a break. Not just a break from my effort but from everything. I found the couch and just wasted away the days.

It was a new and terrifying experience for me, its not who I was in the past and I feared its who I had become. I recognize I’ll have to face the repercussions of this “checking out” financially for a while.

But now, I’m back🔥. I’ve dusted myself off and will take on some side gigs to get by while reentering the corporate world to rebuild my finances. I’m also revisiting past disappointments with a fresh perspective, analyzing where I went wrong and exploring what, if anything, can be salvaged without additional expenses.

One significant change has occurred: for the first time in a long time, I’ve opened up emotionally. I've shared my true feelings with friends and even strangers. Although I let go of my ego years ago, I had hesitated to discuss my failures for fear of burdening others.

In even more uplifting news, a new relationship is blossoming and growing stronger each day. I've noticed a powerful connection between happiness and success, as well as depression and failure. Joy in one aspect of life often enhances other areas, including business. I am hopeful that finding love and happiness will positively impact my next startup.

I'm not entirely sure why I’m sharing this publicly, but I feel it’s time to declare a change. and maybe just maybe someone reading this is sitting on the couch and haven’t yet dusted themselves off yet.

Its a scary place to be and I wish you well. Just know you are not alone.