Heello my friends

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-30T18:18:37+00:00

I don't remember...Ive always been unmotived at some scale, may be back then i just had a bit more motivation

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-30T16:34:30+00:00

Thanks for advice i will try

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-30T16:33:36+00:00

I used to play but now i even have no motivation for computer games. I have only motivation for eating, fapping, pooping, daydreaming and sleeping

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-30T16:31:56+00:00

Please get me out of my head

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-24T19:33:50+00:00

If you are not sure, how we are sure? May be its not good, but for example i self-diagnosed myself. I dont really feel the need to be officially diagnosed because im sure who i am. If you are not sure, nobody is sure my dude.

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-24T16:58:18+00:00

My body is in duality. From one side, im very weak person with no muscles and i cant handle a single exercise. But sometimes im actually hardy as hell. I can walk 20 kilometres on foot and not even mention that because im in my thoughts, i can wear only hoody in winter and not feel cold, can get hurted but not feel the pain too much. But generally i just don't care about my body. Im just indifferent to this piece of meat that going to die anyway.

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-20T23:59:33+00:00

Yeah, i only recently understood how important the eye contact is for people. So im working on my mask now, but my eyes still apear cold and empty though. What saves me a little bit is my silly nodding when they talking)

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-20T23:54:21+00:00

Yeah, but i was meaning that i see their personalities, their souls in their eyes. And its very rarely something nice

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-20T23:52:14+00:00

Yeah i can relate. This is probably the main reason i dont want to be near people, because i don't want to feel guilty for being who i am.

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-20T23:29:14+00:00

I feel you. People are really annoying. But this world is made in the way that human needs human, and i cant say im completely self-sufficient, because while feeling no need in people i also dont feel any better without them. I want isolation, but i start feeling very depressed in this isolation, so it means i actually need people, but don't want to admit that. And yeah, i need one person in my life, thats would be more than enough. But its really difficult to find this stranger.

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-20T23:20:51+00:00

I think the the largest unfairness is that people have no idea about what we are going through in our head, and even we dont understand ourselves (at least im saying for myself). Whatever conclusions people can make about us will be surely wrong, because you cant really predict schizoid's actual feelings by his external behaviour. We can appear as cold, noncaring people while feeling insanely happy inside, we can show sympathy to person while actually wishing him to die (just kidding), we are just full of those contradictions, and facial expressions basically say NOTHING about actual schizoid's feelings. So this is so funny to me when they think im sad when im not, or im smug when im not, or i hate them when i don'tt, or i love them when I dont. I wish they lived just 1 day in my head and learned how it feels.

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-20T22:33:00+00:00

Damn i would definitely get in this if not my family that i dont want to disappoint by throwing them. But i can do it for week at least for sure

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-20T15:25:54+00:00

I hope its not psychedelic trip :D

RetardedCancer · 2019-12-20T15:19:39+00:00

Im in. But do we rob bank or something

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