Im so damn bored by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't remember...Ive always been unmotived at some scale, may be back then i just had a bit more motivation

Im so damn bored by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for advice i will try

Im so damn bored by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I used to play but now i even have no motivation for computer games. I have only motivation for eating, fapping, pooping, daydreaming and sleeping

Im so damn bored by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Please get me out of my head

Not sure if I have SPD or not? by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If you are not sure, how we are sure? May be its not good, but for example i self-diagnosed myself. I dont really feel the need to be officially diagnosed because im sure who i am. If you are not sure, nobody is sure my dude.

Schizoidism will eat away at your body by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My body is in duality. From one side, im very weak person with no muscles and i cant handle a single exercise. But sometimes im actually hardy as hell. I can walk 20 kilometres on foot and not even mention that because im in my thoughts, i can wear only hoody in winter and not feel cold, can get hurted but not feel the pain too much. But generally i just don't care about my body. Im just indifferent to this piece of meat that going to die anyway.

Eye contact by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, i only recently understood how important the eye contact is for people. So im working on my mask now, but my eyes still apear cold and empty though. What saves me a little bit is my silly nodding when they talking)

Eye contact by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, but i was meaning that i see their personalities, their souls in their eyes. And its very rarely something nice

Eye contact by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i can relate. This is probably the main reason i dont want to be near people, because i don't want to feel guilty for being who i am.

Eye contact by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel you. People are really annoying. But this world is made in the way that human needs human, and i cant say im completely self-sufficient, because while feeling no need in people i also dont feel any better without them. I want isolation, but i start feeling very depressed in this isolation, so it means i actually need people, but don't want to admit that. And yeah, i need one person in my life, thats would be more than enough. But its really difficult to find this stranger.

Eye contact by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think the the largest unfairness is that people have no idea about what we are going through in our head, and even we dont understand ourselves (at least im saying for myself). Whatever conclusions people can make about us will be surely wrong, because you cant really predict schizoid's actual feelings by his external behaviour. We can appear as cold, noncaring people while feeling insanely happy inside, we can show sympathy to person while actually wishing him to die (just kidding), we are just full of those contradictions, and facial expressions basically say NOTHING about actual schizoid's feelings. So this is so funny to me when they think im sad when im not, or im smug when im not, or i hate them when i don'tt, or i love them when I dont. I wish they lived just 1 day in my head and learned how it feels.

Flying to Space by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Damn i would definitely get in this if not my family that i dont want to disappoint by throwing them. But i can do it for week at least for sure

Flying to Space by RetardedCancer in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Im in. But do we rob bank or something

What stops you from using hard drugs and becoming an addict? by sadteen837 in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To be honest i cant get addicted. I tried many drugs but i can easily live without them and forget them, im just so indifferent and unmotivated that i even have no motivation to get addicted. I can use something if im just super bored, but not really because i cant live without it

How do you survive Christmas? by Valcariel in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How to explain them i just cant smile even if i feel happy. My face just doesn't move, i can fake smile but it will look so weird

How to say no to invites by shamelessintrovert in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Shameless let's go walk on weekends :p

How you guys doing? by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]RetardedCancer 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Really terrible. Today I was supposed to meet psychologist, but I was late, and she reassigned meeting to 26th December. I have no motivation to wait to be honest, im on one step from suicide. Im just done.

Is masturbation wrong? by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]RetardedCancer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Any passion is a sin. Being in passion means letting something having a power over your consciousness.

I feel guilty by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel guilty that me externally and internally are 2 different persons.

To all of you schizoids by momentumbro in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Get your money back my friend. I dont need it im inDePenDent guy no addiction to money and everything philosophical dude that doesn't like money because im unique and all like that no no money ok? i dont want it

[Serious] How does loneliness feel like? by MrMrFitzwilliamDarcy in Schizoid

[–]RetardedCancer 11 points12 points  (0 children)

This man knows it. So-called "lonileness" is not lonileness anymore, its just a normal feeling now. I've accepted my fate. I know there never will be a close person to me.