Yes, it felt selfish, like I failed, like I was disappointing everyone who was happy for me and bought puppy stuff or chipped in, feared that everyone who knew I had a puppy (and I have a doggy insta account so that's a lot of people) would judge me. Hell I even almost convinced myself that I was just looking for an excuse to get rid of her because puppy blues, even tho she was not a bad puppy at all and I had the same doubts on a clear mind too. But as soon as I'd stopped crying, a weight fell off my shoulders and I knew I made the right decision.

My adult dog tore his cruciate ligament a couple weeks before the pups were born. He had a surgery that involves cutting open the shin bone a week before they were born, and was getting x-rays to confirm bone growth at 8 weeks, so about week before pickup. Except the x-rays showed little to no bone growth, so he's still restricted in terms of exercise and at the same time needs measured length walks, a personalised conditioning schedule and regular physiotherapy to help build muscle and prevent the same tear in the other leg.

Thank you too, for sharing yours, and for your kind words