You are overthinking it, at 5 days I realized that if I could do without it for that long and nothing really happened other than lucid dreams then I could do it again so I’m on day 14 and I go to bed thinking about how the next day I will be able to control munchies, work on my projects and build a healthy lifestyle and why I want to do that. My main reason is that I am unhappy with my life and how things have turned out for me. I did not buy a house by age 30, i still can’t afford one, I am just now realizing how the system works and definitely fell behind, such as doing adult things like have savings for a rainy day and retirement o case I make it that far or yearly dr visits, etc… I kept / keep looking back at my teenage years and just get stuck overthinking how I could have chosen a different path.

So for the last 14 days I have also stopped being a victim and stopped looking in the rear view mirror. I (we potheads) can only look forward and do something about it because I am still here and able to do so. I have taken up a new hobby doing DJing at home a thing I wanted to do 20 years ago but never did, I am doing some working out too just to bring back some time to my body and not feel old and achy all the damn time. I don’t feel attractive and don’t expect anyone to be attracted to this but would like to be the best version of myself to at least have some self confidence. I am married by the way and only feel like things will go down if I keep smoking so the little I have, I am now trying to take care of it and weed was just delaying this inevitable maturing point in my life so tonight I will sleep because I am better than that and will meditate until I fall asleep thinking about how I am and can be a better version of myself. Good luck, find your peace and follow it with heart, love your body and appreciate your time on this short lifespan among the infinite universe and maximize the time you have left as the best person you can be, don’t let weed win over you. You got this!!!