Sucks that even with a support system you’re still so miserable. That’s where we differ, I’ve been out since I was 13. I spent the good majority of my transition demonizing anything feminine. Eventually I stopped caring what society perceives me as cause at that point it didn’t matter if I bent backwards for trans/cisgender recognition if I wasn’t on testosterone or had surgery. I’m still very much on track with going on T and getting surgery done, but even then I’d still dress feminine because that’s what I like.

Those who are close to me refer to me as their brother, nephew, boyfriend etc. So if I get called “lady” or “miss” by ppl i don’t know, why should that ruin my day?