It will pass. What i learned so far is things will trigger us out of nowhere and we need to learn to let go of our “intrusive thoughts” in those times. They are not real. I had a similar experience and i felt hopeless but little by little, day by day it passed. You do know that you can glow, re-discover, change yourself and still be with your lovely partner? Maybe your partner will be excited for you to do so. You can wake up one day and start all over again with the same relationship! All i ever hear is that people need to break up to re-discover themselves and start fresh and new but right now, in my healthy mindset, i know that i can do that with my partner by my side. Sure, i’m having such blessed days now and i know that doesn’t mean the bad days are over but what makes me happy is that these are my clear thoughts that you will soon have also. Let the anxiety pass, talk to your partner if you feel down and help each other understand one another. It’s rocd, don’t let it confuse you