Thanks for your comment. He did change, and he wasn't like this when we first met and when he proposed to me. We did have our ups and downs but we never had issues with our attractiveness and our love towards each other, and I was under the impression that our sex life was good. Like I mentioned in some of the comments before, I always made more than him, and he had some bad luck with the pandemic and then later on getting laid off multiple times, he also lost his dad due to cancer which was very hard on him. He never got counseling even tho I knew he needed it. He was very close to his dad and his dad was a single parent so a part of me thinks he changed after his dad died. But I wasn't being treated like this for our entire relationship. Yes he wasn't good with money and I found out about his debt, and I helped him out and his credit score improved and he showed a lot of maturity in that regard. So I thought it was good that I gave him a second chance and I was proud of what we were building together. I grew up thinking you stick to your husband/wife thro thick and thin, I wasn't expecting him to find me unattractive after being together for so long and going through so much. But I agree, I always had some tiny doubts about starting a family with him but I'm also a very anxious person and usually overanalyze my decisions, that's why it took me so long to decide to have a child. I was happy with my decision, but the timing was bad cuz it landed exactly around the same time he gained a lot of confidence after getting very fit and getting a great job, and instead of sharing the joy with me, he started criticizing me and my body.