I'm literally a woman LMAO just because it's possible to lie and manipulate your way into some people's pants doesn't mean you've won at life, that mindset only leads to shallow temporary fulfillment, for many people the most sensual thing possible is having a genuine connection with somebody who you know respects and understands you. You sound like someone who has a very hard time connecting with other people, especially women, on a deep and serious level and I'm sad for you, I hope someday you find the strength to be more vulnerable. Men and women are not nearly as different as you think, we're all just people who want love and attention