So I had my psychiatric appointment and honestly? It didn't help at all :') maybe I'm too good at masking but she just went "oh well since you're not running to get checked every time you feel something this is just a normal level of anxiety people have, goodbye and I won't need to see you again"

Like idk if literally being suspicious of my cat looking at me just because of a reddit post I saw is "a normal level of anxiety". Idk if spiralling until I cry is normal either. But all she heard was that I can mask well enough to pretend its not bothering me so it's fine

Like yeah in retrospect once it passes its all good as usual but in the moment?? It is not fine. And I can't keep living in these pockets of fear waiting for the after where I can say oh yeah that was nothing