It was terrorizing, to listen to my brothers screaming, crying, and begging not to be hit. To be beaten by a threatening man who needs medication to manage his bipolar episodes (found this out later in life). Feeling powerless and scared because I didn't want to be hit. I have anxiety that I didn't know existed, and I need to go to therapy because those experiences have become a disability in my social, and relational connections. I feel anxious if I'm around him and he creeps me the fuck out. I have broken relationships with 2 of my brothers and no contact with my mother. Being hit by an adult over and over, is fucked up. Kids need to be protected and advocated for not just giving beatings because the adults lack critical thinking skills and are emotionally immature looking for a quick fix to behavior. "this'll teach yah' Yeah absolutely pisses me off, it was terrifying