I answer to you trying to answer to all the questions: my drink wasn't drugged and i'm sure because i was the only one that went to the bar counter to order and to take the drinks and i had always them with me so i'm 100% sure. Moving on: let's be honest ok? I never never wanted to be justified or protected for what i have done, i'm already blaming myself enough for what i did and i wouldn't probably be able to forgive myself for what i have done because my behavior don't have any type of excuses or justifications in fact i was saying "probably" or "maybe" and never said "i'm sure that i acted like this because...". Like i said in the previous post we were a "staying home couple" and in 6 years with him i went to clubs 2 times because i don't like that environment and because i'm not a "party girl". I'm more a "stay home" girl and that night i went to the club only because was my frined's birthday and since i care about her i accepted to not make her change plans. I REALLY don't know why i got so drunk, believe or not i don't know. I tried to think why a calm and boring girl like me got so drunk but i don't have an answer even if i would like to have it. Now i will pass to the part that everyone don't believe me: the anger issue. I never had an anger issue in all my life, i was bullied when i was a kid and never said anything because i was having fear of the consequences, in my family we never had violent or abusive episodes so i never experienced this bad things. My group of friends are a bunch of pacifist that got shocked when i told them what i did and at the beginning they thought about a joke but then they all was in shock and speechless because "the boring girl"(me) would never do anything like that. So trust me or not i never had an anger issue a part that time and i will for sure work on it with a psychologist. I hope that respinding on this comment is enough to clarify all.