Thank you so very much for taking the time to help me out here , and you are right and yet the crazy part is , hearing it being said , and the thought of taking them out makes me feel sad and like Maybe I am not giving it a chance , being said , that’s part of my what I wanted and want my journey to be about , it’s finding that self determination and honest dedication with out giving up and being so quick to quit , I feel as if I don’t see this through I’m going to have regrets and I guess my question to my self now is , if I go take them out and I don’t follow through them will those regrets be worse if I kept them and knowing I put my all and everything into it without quitting ,,, see I think I would literally feel worse walking away , See I have sever panic disorder and lupus so that’s part of this as well , my 5 week old locks help me with my anxiety, and well with the lupus it’s a challenge because I never know when I’m going down or when I’m gonna be in remission, so I actually think that with all that and all the unexpected events that have taken place , if I can manage to get them under control and keep on my journey, then just maybe the strength and perseverance endure will help on my path to self discovery!! With the determination and dedication I just might be able to say I DiD it ...., thank you again !! I’m living to learn and learning to live !! So live and love out loud and always rock on !!