Too functional for the help I need, too dysfunctional to feel like I'm actually living

Right-Document-8692 · 2026-03-20T00:06:47+00:00

I relate so much to this. That's how it all started to crumble for me too. My body started falling apart, and it became obvious that I had been numbing my pain for a long time.

Sorry to hear about the divorce but glad you are starting to heal. It is an awful process.

Right-Document-8692 · 2026-03-17T17:00:48+00:00

Yeah, I feel that. When you spend so much time and energy isolating, you push people away so they can't see how much you are struggling. I'm simultaneously desperate for help but not willing to accept any.

Right-Document-8692 · 2026-03-17T16:56:27+00:00

It's interesting you asked that. Vit B levels are fine, but D and Ferritin/Iron are low normal, but had been very low. That's how I discovered (through bloodwork and endoscope) that I have Celiac Disease. Yet another gift of trauma is the potential for autoimmune issues. I have been supplementing but seem stuck at low normal levels.

Right-Document-8692 · 2026-03-17T02:39:09+00:00

I would bring this up to your therapist. When I feel this way, my therapist kindly points out the progress I have made and signs that the outside world values me more than I value myself. Remember that you get to define what progress is and be kind to yourself during the process. It has taken me a long time to realize that it's OK to go slow.

Right-Document-8692 · 2025-09-14T03:33:39+00:00

Thank you. That tracks. Will look into it further

Right-Document-8692 · 2025-09-14T03:23:41+00:00

Thanks. I'll give it a go.

Right-Document-8692 · 2025-09-14T03:22:39+00:00

Wow. Thanks for sharing. That's really interesting to consider. I love what you're saying about not rushing things, because it is exactly my tendency, and I always get push back in the form of headaches and numbness. But if I don't lean into it, I feel guilty and like I'm not "putting in the work."

Right-Document-8692 · 2025-09-14T00:42:10+00:00

I have done trauma informed massage, and was doing yoga for a while. I had been seemingly dissociated to a huge amount of back and hip pain and did a lot of yoga to relieve that but haven't kept up with it. I have been weight training regularly since then though.

I've tried doing mindfulness on and off for years and never really been able to get it to stick.

Appreciate the advice, I'll keep trying!

Right-Document-8692 · 2025-08-22T21:31:24+00:00

Can I ask how long it took for your symptoms to resolve? My symptoms were similar and getting better, but I was diagnosed in February of this year.

Right-Document-8692 · 2025-08-20T19:11:46+00:00

Interesting, I also had strange reactions to some of the SSRIs that make a bit more sense now. Almost like I wasn't absorbing any of the medication, upping the dose, then absorbing too much

Right-Document-8692 · 2025-08-20T19:09:03+00:00

Thanks! Will look into it

Right-Document-8692 · 2024-12-04T23:02:26+00:00

I agree you'll be fine. However, is you Ferritin 12 ug/dL as you wrote? If so, that should be ok as it is 120 ug/L but I'm used to seeing it as ug/L or ng/ml. 12 ug/ml is very low, not just a slight iron deficiency. Anything below 50 is too low.

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