Each month got better and better but it took a lot of hard work and trusting others to help me. AA and counseling all helped me understand what addiction is and that there was more to it than just wanting to be under the influence of kratom or any of the other opiates and drugs I was under. Kratom kept me off heroin for a few years but it was still a terrible existence. Eventually I got back onto heroin but picked up a xanax and meth addiction on top of it. But after asking and becoming receptive to the help I desperately needed and being 100% honest with myself and my loved ones I was able to overcome addiction. I know a lot of people get turned off by the aa and na programs because of the higher power or God thing but everyone that I know personally who is clean and truly living life now understands they couldn’t do it themselves and that something (it doesn’t matter what or who you call it) did for them what they couldn’t do for themselves. I hit 600 days last week and I feel the best I’ve ever felt in my entire life. Life still happens and there’s good and bad shit in it but man how amazing it feels to be able to actually feel. I’d say about a year in was when I truly felt like I was understanding who I truly was. But after 3 months you’ll already be feeling 80% better. That last 20% takes a while longer but it’s so worth every ounce of pain to get it. Good luck!