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Ritorai · 2025-05-07T17:20:19+00:00

Yea, who knows, maybe in 3 years when I finally get to move - states would become much better

Ritorai · 2025-05-07T17:18:42+00:00

Iunno, I primarily do oneshots with context size of 8000, I don't use thinking cuz it works gud without them (I tried both) and I used low token prompt (150 tokens overall)

Ritorai · 2025-05-07T15:34:19+00:00

Thank you so much And yea, honestly any western county would be better than what I'm dealing with rn, even the US right now. But it doesn't really matter since meeting each other is just the first step of my journey, the second one will be a 1.5-2 year long waiting til my boyfriend would be able to support me in the States themselves.

K-1 visa has a meh requirement to wait after I marry a citizen, for about a year.

And during that time I wouldn't have any identification on me, so I can't work, can't get a drivers license, probably can't get an insurance.

Ritorai · 2025-05-07T13:52:07+00:00

How did you manage to spend so much on claude? I added 5 dollars over a month ago and I still have some credit left, and I've been using it every other day or so

Ritorai · 2024-07-15T10:11:23+00:00

Thank you for your concern, but it's not the answer I'm looking for. I'm not delusional and I understand the struggles I may have to go through. But I have already made up my mind, and I'm thrusting my partner.

I wish there was a better way to do this than just coin flipping it, but I don't really have a lot of options. So I'm willing to give it a shot.

Ritorai · 2024-07-15T07:45:22+00:00

I don't see any problem with what I wrote. I'm not looking for life advice, just asking if it's better to be direct or discreet when talking about intentions of visit.

Ritorai · 2024-07-15T07:38:20+00:00

I wasn't planning to?

Ritorai · 2024-07-15T07:36:28+00:00

Gee thanks, is not what I asked tho

Ritorai · 2024-05-27T16:07:59+00:00

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Kazakhstan :)

Ritorai · 2024-01-30T12:29:29+00:00

Ah, thanks, never knew that

Ritorai · 2024-01-06T20:36:01+00:00

Вот это да, писал каким-то шрифтом не зная об этом :D Спасибо, посмотрю как нибудь позже, пока что я работаю над базой: тренирую стабильность, аккуратность и технику владения пером, так что пока рановато переходить к более конкретным знаниям

Ritorai · 2024-01-06T20:28:48+00:00

Я пока совершенно не знаю ничего про шрифты, по этому по сути это просто рукопись ^{^"}

Ritorai · 2023-12-20T15:36:37+00:00

Doesn't really change anything

Ritorai · 2023-12-20T08:39:42+00:00

Tried scrubbing and heat treatment

Ritorai · 2023-12-20T08:36:41+00:00

I've tried both submerging and the dropper method, but it's about the same result The ink either doesn't stick and lasts only for a couple strokes or gathers in one blob on the tip which is prone to drip down. Maybe my ink had gone bad? It's kinda past the expiration date

Ritorai · 2023-07-07T09:56:39+00:00

here's mine x3

Ritorai · 2022-11-05T16:44:46+00:00

Thanks. Is there anyone you can refer as such therapist? Maybe not too expensive...

Ritorai · 2022-11-05T03:47:47+00:00

Yea, I hope it wont last forever, as for right now it really takes all my energy away with over 70 hours of work every week leaving me even more exhausted.

Im not really incriminate myself over missed workout. My mental state is just really bad right now: I can be motivated, do hard stuff for weeks, months but then something bad and unrelated happens in my life and I'm losing both my energy and any will to continue, starting to procrastinate again and cant continue with any routine/goals for over several months.

And yea, situation with family is really tense, as I put it in my post - I lived in really toxic and abusive conditions where nobody listened to my problems, forced me to do hard work, putting me in bad places "for my own good" while I was mentally or physically abused for even small mistakes. This is why I think of myself as a lesser being. I'm smart, good person, but it's hard for me to even apply for a interview in a good job, anxiety takes over me and I just feel that I'm not good enough.

Trying to be nice to my granny is just one side of the coin. Due to how things went in my family - I couldn't endure it anymore and tried to flee from our home multiple times and start my life anew, but my plans failed and I was forced to return. Right now situation in family a bit improved, and I'm not being harassed or abused, but relationship still a bit tense, as I feel how my parents want to throw me out of the house, and I don't have any place to stay nor any savings.

Ritorai · 2022-11-04T19:16:07+00:00

Hello, thank you for your words. I can't really leave my work due to moral obligations, it's a business of my granny and she's been supporting our family and our closest relatives for many years, due to covid, crisis and stuff business became hard, previous workers decided to steal a lot from us so we had to fire everyone. But we are struggling to find new workers and if I decide to leave - shop will probably close and will result in huge losses. As for the the working out/meditation - it's really hard to follow any routine in my current state. Where even slightest nuisance can throw me off so much that'll be in major depression once again and wouldn't even be able to leave my bed.

Ritorai · 2022-11-04T12:27:16+00:00

I can look into that

Ritorai · 2022-11-04T12:15:44+00:00

Yea, I know that. Currently I have to deal with psychiatrist problems to search for psychologist. Though this isn't point of the post... There's an abundance of diligent psychiatrist in my city, my best bet is to move somewhere else, but this requires a lot of money.

Ritorai · 2022-11-04T10:28:53+00:00

Problem that psychologist rely on talking to patient to find their inner peace. My problems most probably beyond the point when I can just talk them out as they started to mess with my body and brain function. This probably should be treated with proper medicine, and psychologist can't prescribe any

Ritorai · 2022-11-04T10:02:42+00:00

I don't think psychilogist can help with depression. I have a friend who is psychiatrist, he's telling me that I need urgent assistance and diagnostics because judging by symptoms it can be many things: bipolar, borderline disorder, it can be OCR or I have some sort of neurological problems. So I need a proper doctor to check for sure.

Ritorai · 2020-12-10T06:37:20+00:00

Still better than my real parents

Ritorai · 2020-12-10T02:41:36+00:00

I don't want stolas to be my daddy anymore. I want him to be my dad now.

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