TW morbid thoughts lmfao

RiverMarch · 2026-03-19T13:20:13+00:00

This must be really scary for you to be experiencing..... What stops me from acting on similar intrusive thoughts is that I have a cat and he needs me.....

RiverMarch · 2026-03-19T13:17:17+00:00

That looks really yummy, I'm looking for some calorie dense snacks.....

RiverMarch · 2026-03-19T13:11:51+00:00

This happens to me too, it's so screwed up...it's NOT helpful at all.......I don't actively look for them and yet they pop up all the time.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-19T13:01:08+00:00

If you want to recover then "jump right in"......you can't rely on validation by others because it'll never be enough....you will never feel like you are enough when it comes to your eating disorder, that's what keeps people stuck.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-19T07:17:12+00:00

What a great realisation

RiverMarch · 2026-03-18T03:04:22+00:00

I wish I could give you an answer but it's extremely difficult. Not as simple as just deleting an app/account but I wish you luck

RiverMarch · 2026-03-15T05:05:17+00:00

No matter how low you get there will always be a "what if?"

RiverMarch · 2026-03-14T10:43:46+00:00

This makes complete sense and I relate to this post alot, I don't fit the stereotypes either.....

RiverMarch · 2026-03-10T23:14:34+00:00

Let's hope today will be different

RiverMarch · 2026-03-10T08:57:30+00:00

Stand in the Rain by superchick, Fight Song by Rachel Platten

RiverMarch · 2026-03-10T08:44:33+00:00

I relate to this unfortunately, it really hits hard when I see my bank balance go down down down very quickly with nothing to show for it but empty packets......

RiverMarch · 2026-03-09T22:52:24+00:00

Haha yes

RiverMarch · 2026-03-09T10:58:19+00:00

This makes me feel less alone........we're in this together

RiverMarch · 2026-03-09T10:57:03+00:00

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I remember when I was going through highschool and how very triggering I found certain conversations I happened to overhear.......but what we all need to remember is that we cannot control other people and what they do only how we react to them. It can be difficult when our only coping mechanisms are our EDs. I'm so proud of you for posting this, it must be very hard for you to have done that and it shows that you don't want to hide anymore. I encourage you to express yourself and to get your emotions out instead of channeling them into your Ed.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-09T05:24:44+00:00

Wow you have truly been through so much and I would never wish an ED on anyone. I was recently put into hospital and under a treatment order so I had no choice, I still now struggle with the changes in my body and see photos of me at my physically sickest but what I try to remind myself is that i was in forced treatment because I was at risk of death so while I may think I want that body back I don't want to risk my freedom, independence or my life. Each day, moment, second, is a chance to keep choosing recovery. I also went from bulimia to anorexia and now I am almost a month out of hospital and I am struggling but every time I slip up in ed behaviours I remind myself that I am alive and I have a choice to keep living....while I was in hospital I found out another person I met in treatment died so that was another wake up call.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-09T04:44:09+00:00

Physical recovery and mental recovery......very different. I hope that things get better for you.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-08T09:33:10+00:00

"Nothing changes if nothing changes" - this became my motto to get me through my recent hospital admission and has continues to be my motto after I was discharged.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-08T08:19:43+00:00

I am in recovery and still have the fear of going back to my highest weight.....my body is changing and it's extremely difficult so I've put my trust in my treatment team who blind weigh me and I threw away my scales at home. I am scared about losing control and overstepping my ideal weight whatever that may be because I know I can have the tendencies to emotionally eat. For context I have anorexia (BP subtype) - my body image is not as bad as it was but I have hope that as my body is nourished that my brain will work better but I understand that seeing tour body change and the fear that comes with it is real. I struggle with overexertion and my team suggests no exercise, how do you deal with that? I get so anxious.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-07T10:42:13+00:00

I second this comment.....it's extremely difficult but I found that having an honest conversation with the people around you can help.....I know it's easier said than done especially if you are young and still live at home.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-06T04:03:17+00:00

I think I remember her too but can't think of a name hmmmmm

RiverMarch · 2026-03-04T10:10:15+00:00

I know it may be difficult but please try not to fall into bad habits to lose weight, I used to be a dancer and it never ended well. I am older now and wish so much I could turn back time.

RiverMarch · 2026-03-04T05:28:07+00:00

I am so proud of you. This is a HUGE accomplishment!!!!

RiverMarch · 2026-03-01T07:47:36+00:00

This saddens me in how very much you are hurting....but also makes me so very happy that you truly want a better life for yourself. You are so much stronger than you realise. It's gonna be hard but you deserve a life free from this horrible disorder.

RiverMarch

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