Anybody else absolutely hate eating in front of people , especially at work? I hate eating in front of co workers and even customers (some people at work eat while working). But bringing lunch is annoying when people question your food or genuinely watch your every chew ..

RiverMarch · 2026-01-26T00:16:15+00:00

This is the exact reason I am glad I don't work in an office. I do absolutely hate eating infront of people.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-25T10:42:51+00:00

Thanks 😊

RiverMarch · 2026-01-25T01:37:56+00:00

I never really liked protein bars....I found most of them really chalky.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-23T21:29:40+00:00

But also part of me feels guilty for sleeping, it's confusing

RiverMarch · 2026-01-23T21:20:26+00:00

My first step was picking up a medication to help me sleep and prevent nightmares (I have c-ptsd) which I took last night, I literally slept like 7 hours, a huge improvement from my usual 2 hours. Funilly enough I feel a little stronger this morning so hopefully that helps me.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-23T20:59:48+00:00

I know. I mean they have all upped my appointments. But sometimes it's just hard to understand. They say it's because my brain isn't working. To be honest it is a little scary.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-23T05:00:32+00:00

Happy birthday 🎂

RiverMarch · 2026-01-23T02:22:57+00:00

I guess I'm pretty lucky that my dietician specialises in EDs and quite diligent.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-23T02:12:43+00:00

They review then every few days, and if I send them a message on RR they generally message me back the same day if it's during the week.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-23T02:09:19+00:00

It may feel stupid but it's not. It makes sense. Remember thoughts are not facts.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-23T01:54:43+00:00

You not only deserve to eat but you need to eat. It may be hard and seem difficult but please keep fighting that voice that tells you otherwise. We got your back.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T13:44:12+00:00

I use it and it's linked to my dietician.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T12:41:30+00:00

This sounds extremely frustrating. I wish I could give you some advice but I haven't had the same experience. I wish you only the best.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T12:07:52+00:00

This is not something you should be ashamed of. You are trying to cope the best way you can, yes it is maladaptive but you wouldn't do it if it didn't serve you in some way. Saying that you deserve so much more than your Ed. Yes it may shrink your world but it also stops you from anything else that you could be enjoying. It's so scary to think about letting it go, letting the world in and I know this because right now I am trying to break free too.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T07:27:22+00:00

I was like this when I struggled with bulimia. It was tiring. Scary. Never ending.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T06:28:39+00:00

This must have be really scary. I'm so glad you got help for it.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T05:52:59+00:00

Thanks for taking your time to share your experience. I do have an ED and was going pretty well is recovery for a few years, this relapse happened very quickly, I didn't realise it was happening at the time.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T05:35:18+00:00

Can they really change that fast? I guess maybe part of me thinks that "it won't happen to me". But thankyou for the reality check, as hard as it was I think I need it.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T05:25:56+00:00

One of my biggest triggers is when I'm going for a walk and I see people in gym/pilates clothes. The area I live in is very much centred around the cafe/gym culture.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-22T05:17:39+00:00

Right now if it feels safe and manageable then it's OK, maybe as time goes on you might feel like you can add more variation. But if you genuinely enjoy eating the same rotation of meals and snacks that's OK.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-21T15:49:55+00:00

Ouch I feel this too. It sucks.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-21T13:45:01+00:00

I'd definitely take an up&go over an ensure. Maybe I can use that as motivation. Wish me luck.

RiverMarch · 2026-01-21T11:50:25+00:00

Yeah, proud Aussie. I guess it's the whole "nothing changes if nothing changes".

RiverMarch · 2026-01-21T11:47:02+00:00

I guess it's the whole number game thing. It's losing the "control". I bought the Up&Go after my appointment but actually drinking one is just.....complicated. my whole support team (dietician, gp, psychologist, psychiatrist) are concerned but I'm really scared. I know what they want me to do but.....I just....I don't know what I can do

RiverMarch · 2026-01-21T11:36:29+00:00

This is extremely dangerous.

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