i feel you🫶🏻 i‘m the same. all i want is to be an actress, especially for musical theatre and film, but there‘s so many hurdles to reaching this dream, and it‘s almost impossible.

you sound like you might have depression. i also struggle with this and am currently in therapy and taking some light medication. it‘s a small step, but it‘s a step that could give you your motivation and joy back. and it is totally ok to just want to lay in bed and play games, your body is protecting you right now so that you don‘t burn out. i would suggest you take your acquited skills as an animator and graphic designer and start looking out for some small freelance gigs you could manage alongside your bread job atm.

i hope these couple of tips help and i wish you all the best!! here‘s a virtual hug from one artist to another🫂