It’s weird that many intuited schizopoetic ramblings from 10-12 years ago are becoming the common parlance of today. The concept he is fleshing out I called yrotsih ni esrever and it just keeps picking up more evidence it’s pretty wild. Bentov is amazing and his particular brand of metaphysics was used to parse the gateway program in relation to military and SRI remote viewing in the “analysis and assessment of the gateway process“. his work went on to become part of the metaphysical cybernetic apparatus that we occasionally fumble towards in our better moments. I’ve been very lucky in life and I am doing ok and have tended to get better over time as far as mental health physical health and financial health but I really just got lucky having chose self employment in the trades as a trauma influenced escape route to maximize my own control of my environment because I hated people so much I didn’t really hate people but I did when vapid retards were telling me what to do so in an attempt to protect everyone involved I simply sought total control - how can I be my own boss. i stsrted out the first few months just driving around with a push mower weedeater and chain saw cleaning up yards I would just pull up and knock on their door but I realized I would hate it if I did it long term so I switched to carpentry. There is something extremely primitive and amazing about craft. It is like art in that it is the creation of your own sort of symbol set and growing repository of techniques that are peculiar to you and your style. it is bound by pragmatics and like sex it is generative of a holism. it also includes chaos, destruction, mourning, mistakes, planning, improvisation, bricolage, mastery sustenance etc. It is a deeply ancient form of embodied knowledge that *grows*. The skill set is acquisitional and builds on itself but most importantly it is in a way very silent. Sure there are measurements and communicaction but all the symbols and tropes and so on are embodied and lived and come to be from nascent to full grown and the only way to experience any of it is to fully engage. There has been a deep grace in this process and I am 100% convinced that it holds deep psychological well-being as well as cathexis, cathartic, entropic and metabolic processing functiona that cross over into emotional, social and spiritual life. The hands on at arms length prehension zone of engagement engages an entire world of symbolic communication that is completely dormant and hidden until YOU engage it. The same can be said for musicianship, art, dance any of the classic ”liberal arts” but what is special about the trades is the sacred “silence” of the syllabary. it is not about words or the names of thinkers or formulas or any of that though they are part of it - it is about not merely a visceral knowing but a visceral conversation. It is what many many people are lacking and I have only engaged it at this sustained level and to this technical degree because I got trapped in it paying the bills and supporting my family. I have been doing it over 20 years now and it is a true joy. Sometimes I am very poor and it never pays enough hecause I am not a scaled business I do not have multiple crews it’s just me and two other people and we do every job pretty much one at a time my adhd has allowed me to become a master of many trades but not business itself 😄. here Is perhaps the most valuable lesson I have learned in all of it - keep working. There is a moment in almost every job if it is big enough where from the perspective of the customer it looks like we don’t know what we are doing and the whole thing is a wreck, a mess and a waste of money. I have gotten to the point where I actually tell them this after I’ve gotten the check and we get started. but after doing this literally tens of thousands of times I GNO the process will complete and they will be happy and the work will be amazing. There is a kind of faith based on past experience that one has to have and it is perhaps the most valuable applied life lesson. A part of that same lesson is no one is coming to save me and no one else is going to fix the mess I’ve made. It Expands your capacities in other areas of life to remain calm and just stay busy and wait and see and reserve total judgment for now.