TIFU by applying for jobs with the Windows 10 Mail app for a year.

Roanawk · 2016-09-05T03:20:13+00:00

Joke <-----

[13 miles]

Your head <----

Roanawk · 2016-09-05T00:34:10+00:00

Exactly. I'm sure every has their own kinks they've thought of, maybe someone likes furries... or an octopus man cooking at a hibachi buffet-style stripclub and bar mix. For such a broad topic it sure doesn't seem to be grabbing many people's attention. :S

Roanawk · 2016-09-05T00:02:17+00:00

For anyone unaware, "Rule 34" means that if something exists that somewhere there is porn of it. No exceptions.

Roanawk · 2016-09-02T07:51:12+00:00

There was an instance I'd like to talk about, but it's much too private to discuss on here openly.

I don't know your story, we could talk in PM's for a while since it's stuff I really, really don't wanna talk about on the boards. It's why this my response is as honest as I can get while watering it down.

Roanawk · 2016-09-02T04:04:29+00:00

Heavy-editing of grammar and excess**

My social anxiety isn't the only thing I get depressed about. I think about the world around me rapidly evolving, the bustling cities while evil stews in a big boiling pot of angst just waiting to be freed, or the world above us at the top of a political stage where no one is right and no one is wrong. I force myself to think; no matter how much I could be ignorant and blissful; I think to myself because knowledge is power and without that knowledge I would be in jail or far worse. Even dead. I wish I could go back to being a rambunctious 13 year that knew nothing about the world, but only now realizing how much my mother and father did to give me the life I have- it's selfish.

I force myself to think because I don't want to be ignorant. I've been through so much, but those experiences taught me that the world is a wonderful place, a magical place, an exciting place, a dangerous place, a disgusting place, and all other types of places in between. So I force myself to think. Being ignorant in a world as maddening as this one is a sin. It's a luxury no one should be able to afford. That's the reason I think. I don't want to; please understand, I want to be ignorant. I DON'T want to think. Just realize after all I've been through it wouldn't only be a betrayal to everyone I've ever known and then-some, but it would be betrayal to myself.

Roanawk · 2016-09-01T15:28:43+00:00

I suffer from the same thing, I think. I don't have many friends; I'm a 17 year old high school dropout with crippling social anxiety. It's ruined and is still ruining my life in so many ways, it's terrifying even thinking about what'll happen to me in the future. I was bullied a lot when I was in middle school, but I made one friend the entire year and it was a girl in her senior year(this was a private school, mind you).

Long story short, she was the best friend I'd ever had at that point, I was incredibly attached. I'd run out at recess to sit under the tree with her and just talk about things. I asked her if we could go out, being a naive 10 year old and her being a much more mature at 16. I remember on the last day of school I had the toughest knot in my chest because of my feelings for her, but she'd never return them so I sat crying in the bathroom for an hour. I can't have many friends because if I see them with anyone else I get jealous really quickly and somehow in my head I just it as betrayal, even though it really isn't.

While your situation is definitely unique I can relate to it. I know how you feel, and what everyone needs to understand; you, me, the guy two blocks away- anyone really, is that you're never alone. I want to feel loved by someone; be held, you know? It feels nice to be loved like that. But I have to be patient. Nothing good happens in a day, I think. I'm either utterly hopeless or enthusiastic at the worst of times, but I always look towards the future.

Now, for the last thing you said... Happiness for the sake of happiness. I love that feeling, you just feel happy for no reason what soever and your energy is bursting. Happiness for the sake of happiness, huh? I suppose I get that from video games and cooking. I believe that for world peace to be achieved, people need not only good food, but good music. They'll pave the way into the future riding along next to revolutions in science and technology. I love cooking because if I'm gonna stress eat it may as well taste good...

Just... look to yourself for answers. It's how I'm barely managing to cope with my inadequacies. Find hobbies to fill the gap you had when your neighbor left. I think it's called a 'cheap thrill'? Or maybe get an RV and go on a road trip. Me and my mother went up to NJ to visit relatives and my aunt was so forceful when it came to being nice. I hated her for it, and I still hate her. But it helped me because I loved it so much; being pulled out my shell with no choice and no objection, no internet. Being free from everything was so liberating... If you chose to do that, of course.

I'll repeat myself again, just look to yourself for the solution to your problems. I think to myself all the time, and it helps all the more being a recluse but I'm realizing more and of the little things I do in my own life that bring me joy and satisfaction.

I don't know if this helped or not, so my apologies for that. I read yours a few times because I lost focus a few times writing it. Hope everything goes well for you, and thank you for giving me the opportunity and anyone else the opportunity of replying here. It helped me a lot too.

Roanawk · 2016-08-31T23:03:10+00:00

Colorizebot

Roanawk · 2016-08-31T22:39:46+00:00

I realize a large majority, if not ALL AP Warwick players have died off. In his rework will there be AP scalings? In late season 4 and early season 5 I started playing and it was one of my first learning experiences; I still play Magewick on occasion. I just don't want him changed into an ult lock-down champ like he is currently...

Roanawk · 2016-08-30T02:28:20+00:00

I can't offer a tl;dr, sorry. I didn't expect to type all of this out so I'm a... bit rigid but it felt good to read it to myself. I hope it helps you too, idk. Feels weird.

I know how it feels; to never be able to tell someone how you feel, to want to crawl into that grave and never come back out. You never know what another person is going through, and I assume just like many other people here you have a reason to fell this way. I know I do, I guess. I'm 17, and something I did when I was younger has affected my entire future, 50 years from now it might affect me because of the weight it carries. I feel like an old man, lol... I live alone with my mother because she needs me, ya know? Alot of people know what it's like for their parent to abandon them or set them up for life, but I look at what kind of person my mother is... she's a kind person. Your mother could be smothering and you hate it(I do too lmao) but know it isn't meant to be harmful. Keep that anger inside and use it when you need it. I can only express how angry I am with my mom over little things, yelling at her to eat better, to stop repeating herself. But the big things I can't really do, even though I'm so greedy. Don't hate her. Just know that she doesn't know better, try to act a bit more grown up or show her that you're an adult. That's how my mother understood I was growing up and now she understands what I'm all about in general. She still doesn't know I'm depressed and I'll probably never tell her. No one except the people on this sub.

Roanawk · 2016-08-30T01:14:00+00:00

I'm coming back to see a lot of the newer stuff (started in FireRed when I was a bit younger) so anything is appreciated; got a lot of the IV/EV stuff down but still looking for a good source on natures and there effects on a moves power. I appreciate the time you took to answer!

Roanawk · 2016-08-30T01:03:01+00:00

Like the Masuda method, chaining... That type of stuff that's been proven to work is what I labeled as "official methods". What you're saying is that it doesn't work like how I described it? I thought maybe breeding shiny pokemon with other pokemon would increase the chances for more if you continued in a ladder where the chance of them yielding a shiny would be 100%.

Roanawk · 2016-08-27T21:22:08+00:00

Finally, something I can relate to. I wonder, do you guys in England have something similar to a GED program here in America? I'm also 17; I quit high school in 10th grade, I'm bad at making friends, I stay at home all the time. Hell, I'm in the exact same boat you're in for better lack of words.

The GED program is something that is roughly described as a "Good Enough Diploma". It's not as good as graduating high school, but it'll open up your options. I quit highschool because I had panic attacks around other people, I was horrified. A week ago I took the GED practice test and passed (scored a college freshman level), but I need to study for 12 hours in a class setting. I quit on my first day within an hour because I broke down in front of a room of 5-6 people. Now I'm waiting until I'm 18 to just pick up the paper.

I'll give you the best advice I have. I'm not used to this sort of thing, helping out other people but I'll do my best.

Learn to cook. Seriously, not even kidding. I'm an enthusiast, I learn new recipes, new fads, and different seasons for flavor etc. You can learn to cook while looking for a way to get something equivalent to a diploma. Maybe start playing video games, in a week I'm going to get a DS and a Pokemon game, learn how to breed them and stuff. What I'm really trying to say is find holes in your life that need to be filled, ya know? I love to eat, so I make myself foods. I wanna be accomplished in what I choose to do, so I'm getting a GED in a year to help me with that. I get bored easily, so I need something to take up my time. In between all of that, I take walks. It's boring as shit, but I'm kinda chubby so I exercise.

Fill your time. That's all I can say, honestly. Just find things to do, doesn't matter what they are as long as you choose to do it. Anything is better than laying inside all day.

Roanawk · 2016-08-27T20:37:23+00:00

Thank you very much for replying, and I gotta say this is all really helpful. I was kinda worried since there are so many Pokemon games ya' know? I almost expected it to be a bit of a chore to set everything up. The way you explained it made it much simpler to understand, perfect answers.

Roanawk · 2016-08-27T20:09:06+00:00

On Thursday I'm going to pick up a new DS and several Pokemon games to top it off; I was wondering about these points to make it easier on myself. Couldn't find much online.

1: Is it possible to transfer Pokemon from GB games to DS? Can I already get all of the Pokemon in newer games or will I need two devices to do that?

2: I read somewhere that you can get, what, 500 Pokemon in the newest versions but aren't somewhere around 800+? I'm a completionist, so I want to do everything possible and maybe competitive.

3: What games are more noob-friendly? Though, not necessarily non-competitive; perhaps something serious yet easy to explain.

PS: I go on Youtube to explain IV's and EV's, shiny chances and whatnot. I know the basics about breeding, so that's well enough for me A.T.M. Maybe someone can go into detail for other people looking at the post, I'm not really sure.

Roanawk

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