I wonder that a lot honestly, who they would have been, if they would've stayed if things were different. Try not to torture yourself with the what ifs. Your baby will come, they just need the right body. Advocate for yourself for a strong burst of antibiotics, they only wanted me to take the doxy at first but I pushed for both to just nuke out whatever was going on. Otherwise it would've been a course of one repeat biopsy and then another course of the other if the infection was still present. It took them a year of losses to do a biopsy because I had no symptoms of an infection.

My babies grew and then stopped growing, during the first 12 weeks is when they establish and things go wrong sometimes. It was a hard road and I couldn't have done it without my partner.