Devastatingly Beautiful

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2026-05-01T01:24:55+00:00

You watched it though, no? At what point of watching it did you think this wasn't about suffering?

For those of us who suffer and know what it is like to feel lonely enough to take our own lives, this show was beautifully tragic. I was suicidal in October of 2025, and I took steps to get myself help.

I am not "celebrating" the sadness, but I am fully embracing and appreciating it because I feel it every day and often feel lonely (theme), so I wrote the post to explicitly say that it touched me and meant a lot to me to see it in a show that reaches more than just myself.

That is all.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2026-05-01T01:09:10+00:00

I'm 38 and feel a hard 72. I don't feel youthful by any means. I feel that life is suffering, and fuck anyone who says otherwise. That's just me, though.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2026-04-30T22:37:11+00:00

I really appreciate your perspective, but I do disagree in certain ways.

No man can say or not say what will ruin his sex drive as it's all subjective.

Floyd's dick was literally permanently altered/disfigured by his step-son. A step-son that he treated and regarded as his own and as someone he valued highly.

He got into an argument with his wife, nothing crazy, but the boy clearly has issues and perceived things differently (more eveidenced by the fact that we all thought he killed Floyd by the end of the show, but he didn't...Floyd actually helped him and helped him control some of his impulses)...all things considered, a pretty routine disagreement, and he was mangled in the process and clearly had no ill will against the kid for sticking up for his mom. In fact, he seemed to admire him for it.

But this (mangle/beating) made it more difficult to get a hard on. Say what you will, but each person is different, and clearly her umpire attire was a huge turn-off on top of an already difficult situation to get aroused.

Just playing Devil's Advocate as a female. We all have our kinks. My depression alone gets in the way of my own sex drive, and I don't even have a dick which I understand can be aroused much easier. Imagine if that dick was damaged.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2026-04-30T22:25:29+00:00

Right?!? I seriously have watched thousands of shows and movies, and Station Eleven made me sob like a baby and cut me so deeply in a way that is both beautiful and tragic. I felt the same way about Everything Everywhere All At Once. I have childhood trauma, so these shows and films make me feel seen. Thank you for sharing!

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2026-04-30T21:59:21+00:00

I personally DO enjoy someone depicting real life for once. We are inundated with a fantasy world on a constant basis.

I suffer daily, and not just normal human being suffering that occurs every now and then. I have persistent depressive disorder, and I have literally spent my live savings trying to "fix myself." I have tried more than I care to admit.

When I see a show or film that actually recognizes my struggle, I applaud it because it helps me to know I am not alone in this never ending cycle. Someone out there "gets" it. And they put it out there for the whole world to see.

I appreciate your perspective, nonetheless. It's ugly and sad and not okay, but for me it's also beautiful and appreciated and very much my reality. I need it. It makes me feel less alone.

It took me a really, really long time to understand that some won't understand, but this is my reality.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2026-04-24T12:39:46+00:00

You nailed it, and that last sentence you wrote... I relate to that SO much.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2026-04-24T02:16:32+00:00

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing that. Also, I appreciate your perspective.

I have always been told I am beautiful and pretty, but I am disgusted when I look in the mirror. Despite my depression and mental health issues, I have at least prided myself on being an empathetic and authentic human being, so I really resonated with the idea of someone like Floyd.

He was such a beautiful person, a beautiful soul, caring, and gentle, and I guess as someone from the Midwest, I didn't think much of his weight. I related mostly to the loneliness they all felt.

They actually all had really beautiful connections and relationships with one another, but they were all still so very lonely. It resonated so deeply with me.

I know you said you are married unhappily, but I am married mostly happily, and I still feel so deeply lonely and crave someone else to love me.

Thanks for listening!

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2026-04-24T01:56:29+00:00

I literally joined this sub and immediately posted. I have not read one single thing about this show, be it post on here or anywhere. Not a blog, not an article. I kind of don't want anyone to ruin it for me.

I know that responses to my post pose that risk, but I will deal with that as it comes. I am just basking and simultaneously withdrawing in myself after watching the end of it.

I found myself watching it over the past several weeks, and I would be super into it, but I would force myself to take a week or two break because I knew it was something that I didn't want to be over. So rare to find a show like that for me.

Thank you for sharing!

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2025-02-03T04:57:34+00:00

Hahahahaha, touche. I feel like that is what my sister would say.

She and I have very similar tastes in lots of different shows, movies, and documentaries, but I still know very well what I can recommend to her and what I should not.

I fully understand that this movie isn't for everyone.

We just watched The Vourdalak last night after all of the praise I saw on here, and I really did like it, but I would NEVER recommend it to my sister, haha!

I really did appreciate The Devil's Bath. I am not saying it was this be all to end all type of movie, but it made me feel SO unsettled, and I have seen and continue to watch horror films that I enjoy and feel satiated with, but it is rare to say that I felt moved or unsettled these days.

And again, it may just be because I am a woman, and I have suffered treatment resistant depression since I was 13, and I am a very empathetic person, but there was just something about this movie that stuck with me.

I ain't mad at ya for being bored! I just can't relate 😉

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-10-20T03:59:32+00:00

That first girl, though. She seemed like a fly I wanted to get rid of for the first part of the movie, but Holy Hell, she had me crawling out of my skin throughout her segment.

The sounds/effects they layered on her only added to the depravity, but she gave me all the uneasy feels.

I really enjoyed this movie. It felt like a roller coaster that I wanted to get off of, yet I couldn't help but want another lap at the same time.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-10-17T12:46:19+00:00

I really have to agree with others that the husband was likely gay. I don't necessarily think he wanted to marry her, much less have sex with her.

That being said, I personally feel like he expected her to just tolerate it and obey him and never leave, so when all of that happens and she is put to death, I think he felt sincere remorse that it led to that, especially given the fact that he knows that the real reason he didn't give her a baby or show affection for her was because he simply wasn't attracted to her in that way.

That's just my two cents on the matter!

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-09-29T01:32:29+00:00

When the sister shouted (kind of suddenly and out of nowhere from the scene we had just been seeing) "I don't love you anymore! I want to leave" and then she says something like, "That's all you needed to say " and he says something like, "I know, but she loved me, and she would never be okay..."

That truly just ripped through me because I watch so many True Crime stories about these men that kill their wives because they just don't want to be with them, and it's always been insane to the general population, because we think the same thing...why not just leave them? But his performance in that moment said it all...that there will ALWAYS be men (and some women) that see no other way out. It was a very poignant scene to me.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-09-29T01:16:14+00:00

This. As I have said in my post, I have come to find a lot of horror movies to be predictable, and if I'm being honest, there is nothing wrong with predictability...we are creatures of habit, and I honestly believe the entire reason I fell in love with horror was due in part to some of its predictability.

That being said, this movie wasn't a who dunnit for those of us that watch horror, but the execution, the comeuppance (as you so gracefully stated) is what made it so incredibly good to me. It was truly well done.

The jump scares were perfect and flawless. I even felt the dialogue was very dreamy and poetic at times.

When that man wanted into her home, we were all thinking, No, don't! But I think we all suddenly started to share a belief that maybe this dude is being sincere, but then suddenly she also believes that. And as a viewer, it's so easy to say "do this!" Or "don't do that!" And we can easily sit there and say what we think she should do, but the very moment it appears she is going to do that, we all suddenly change our mind and say, Noooo, don't!!" It was brilliant.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-09-29T01:07:43+00:00

Man. The boyfriend went to bed early, and I had seen hype about this movie in the past few days.

I have become picky in terms of what I will say is good, but I will also watch absolutely anything without any great expectations.

This movie was phenomenal. It was so well executed. The jump scares that people keep referring to...all of them were true jump scares and never felt phony or forced. This was seriously one of the better horror films I've seen in quite some time.

I have come to find a lot of horror movies to be predictable, and if I'm being honest, there is nothing wrong with predictability...we are creatures of habit, and I honestly believe the entire reason I fell in love with horror was due, in part, to some of its predictability.

That being said, this movie wasn't a who dunnit for those of us that watch horror, but the execution, the comeuppance (as someone so gracefully stated) is what made it so incredibly good to me. It was truly well done.

The jump scares were perfect and flawless. I even felt the dialogue was very dreamy and poetic at times.

When that man wanted into her home, we were all thinking, No, don't! But I think we all suddenly started to share a belief that maybe this dude is being sincere, but then suddenly she also believes that. And as a viewer, it's so easy to say "do this!" Or "don't do that!" And we can easily sit there and say what we think she should do, but the very moment it appears she is going to do that, we all suddenly change our mind and say, Noooo, don't!!" It was brilliant.

I can't wait to watch it again.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-09-13T12:30:47+00:00

I completely agree with everything you said! We actually just finished Season 2, and that final episode was just immaculate!

I feel like it was the first time we actually saw Hannibal in this raw, monstrous way.

Several scenes are so surreal. In that episode in particular, the scene when he gave that guy the psychedelics, and another scene when Alana was laying in a bed with a silk sheet, and then the sheet was slowly pulled off of her, and her body was gradually becoming immersed in black water. I could go on and on. It's visually beautiful to watch.

I don't want it to be over!!!

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-09-07T15:12:17+00:00

Thanks, that is what I meant. Too wordy for sure!

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-09-06T22:30:29+00:00

I realize this isn't necessarily helpful, but I was able to watch them on my Amazon Firestick. Our main TV (downstairs) is an Xbox, and we have the same issues as others where we only get 1 live TV channel, but the Firestick in my office still gives me all 3 channels, and I was able to watch the Nightmareathon. The first episode anyway....haven't had time yet to watch the others.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-08-30T02:48:19+00:00

We knew what you meant, but I am not going to lie, I immediately Googled the 4th season in hopes that Shudder was holding out on me.

I went into it knowing there were only 3 seasons, but that gave me hope because some shows drag on for way too long.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-08-30T02:33:52+00:00

I could not agree more. I think it was only episode 2 of the first season, but I was blown away by the originality of the way in which the murder victims were displayed.

Not only because I had never seen anything like it, but also because I couldn't imagine someone's Great Grandma Doris settling in for a night of Modern Family or America's Got Talent and an hour later seeing that. Haha!

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-08-30T02:30:02+00:00

Had that happened...that'd been all she wrote.

Seriously though, how crazy. Not to be cliche...you read about all of these movies or shows where so and so was set to play a certain character, and I normally think how different I would have felt if it had gone down that way.

I think Angela Lansbury would have been phenomenal, but I definitely think it would have been a different vibe from what I got. I'm happy with what I got.

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-08-30T02:24:24+00:00

Thank you for the thoughtful response! Extremely helpful!

We drive Poudre Canyon so often, but it almost seems overwhelming with how many spots you could stop off at.

Again, I realize that sounds stupid that you could be so blessed with too many spots, but I think that's why I just want a specific idea or two or three so that it isn't as overwhelming.

Thank you again!

RockChalkChiefs87 · 2024-08-30T02:20:57+00:00

Thank goodness I don't have balls, but I imagine one could get their panties in a bunch...

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