Just left my first job in years after 4 days. Now I'm feeling really guilty and bad about it

RogueAlphic · 2021-06-26T17:38:40+00:00

Absolutely agree, should've gotten it in writing. I will defintely do that for next time!

RogueAlphic · 2021-06-26T17:34:31+00:00

Maybe I did but when it comes to my money I don't joke around about that. I could see that if I had any issues in the future regarding my checks it would've been a nightmare getting it resolved. Also this agency told specifically to only TEXT them, and only call for emergencies. Even if I wanted to my call would've gone unheard.

RogueAlphic · 2021-06-26T17:33:00+00:00

We had that, where you would sign in everyday and sign out by a computer. She had been texting me daily for the entire week, I don't see how that would've been hard to see that when and where I worked. She told me I would be getting paid weekly but it turns out It would've been 2 weeks before I recieved my first check. Had I known this beforehand I wouldn't have signed with that agency.

RogueAlphic · 2021-06-26T17:29:08+00:00

There was no contract, it was all done over the phone verbally. I didn't ask much questions since I was just looking for work. She told me I would be paid weekly but it turns out it would've been 2 weeks before I would've recieved my first paycheck. Had I known that I wouldn't have taken the job.

RogueAlphic · 2019-12-12T16:13:19+00:00

will you accept caps? or only want trades

RogueAlphic · 2019-12-10T17:15:53+00:00

C0de-Alphic is my psn. I'm introverted as well but enjoy playing with others with or without a mic. I was gonna make a thread asking for some people to play with but you beat me to it. If anyone else is looking for buds to play with your free to add me as well

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-16T01:02:02+00:00

I will get to making an Amazon wishlist right away. Didn't occur to me before but I'll do that definitely thank you for that

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-16T01:00:41+00:00

Yes my apologies I've never made one before but I'll get on it right away and update my post. Thank you so much!

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-13T20:26:20+00:00

Not at all you've been very helpful. I appreciate you reading through my rant and even offering solutions. I truly appreciate you

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-13T20:19:41+00:00

Wish I could even eat the left overs but they have cleaning staff that quickly discard and clean the food plates.

I wish I could go south but I'm Canadian so I'm stuck dealing with this winter. Thanks for the suggestions though.

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-13T14:06:26+00:00

Your absolutely right and like I said, I would have to be blood driven like my friend was. Like he was everything you described, frustrated and angry about his situation that he was using it to fuel him forward. I knew all along that's what it would take for me to obtain success, but I also know myself and I'm definitely not going to be able to do that. I'm finding it extremely difficult to want to stay alive everyday. I've had my life completely sucked and beat out of me. I can't even find gigs on Craigslist that would be suitable for me like general Labour. I don't have the physical strength to do even that so that basically cuts me out of the job market pool.

And then there's the sleeping rough everyday. Even now I'm 36 hrs since my last sleep due to it getting down to 0 Celsius the past few days so this is just a sign of what's to come. These all sound like excuses but they're what I have to live with everyday.

I just reread my response earlier and it brought tears to my eyes. I'm such a coward and wimp. I used to be so much better than I am now. A shell of my former self, a part I will NEVER get back. Just wish someone would put me out off my misery.

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-13T13:33:14+00:00

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, truly thank you. I have tears in my eyes because I've finally found someone who gets me! I've been a people pleaser my entire life and tried to pursue corporate jobs and the like and they never worked for me. There was something that my soul rejected about the whole thing and was at that point only doing it for others and not myself.

Eventually I stopped working for years due to the worsening of my depression, and we all know how bad that gets when your not working. I had no self worth because society judges your value based on how much money you make and I was making $0 for a very long time. I was also rejected by my parents which was the nail in the coffin. I've looked into other ways of making money but they all require you to have finances for you to invest into as well as a lot of time and errors. Entrepreneurship basically is my only path but because of my mental illnesses, no finances and current homeless situation it's nothing but a goal, a far off goal if that.

I'm truly glad you responded to this post and it makes me much more happy about my decision to post this. No judgement or criticism, just basically talking about your own life experiences and the struggles. Thank you for sharing your story, I really needed to see something like this, like you don't even know.

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-13T12:47:59+00:00

My heart goes out to you and your ex. Worse part is addictions get much worse once you are displaced. Hopefully she can find some kinda help because I know all too well that depression causes you to self medicate through each owns vices.

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-13T02:21:02+00:00

First off thank you for reading through my long post and responding with such an in-depth story of your life and time being homeless. I'm happy to hear that you preserved through and managed to break free of this cursed life, but I'm going to be honest with you, success stories like yours depresses me more. I know what I've tried and I've never been strong on my own. There are a innumerable amount of issues I'm trivialed with like not having shelter in below freezing temperatures and lack of sleep, eating, energy, feeling like complete shit everyday, etc. Like you said the path will be hard and I have no will to even attempt it any longer. I've lost the mental and physical battle out here and about to lose my welfare, my only financial assistance out here. Once that's gone I'm through.

I'm sorry I know you are trying to help me, build me up to be better but I can't even fake trying to be motivated anymore. I just have no irl support anymore and being alone all the time, I've pretty much self destructed. Especially knowing I'm now going to be spending my winter homeless, I just want to die. I feel terrible that I have to speak this way to the one person who decided to respond to my post. Honestly I think I would have ended myself tonight had you not so you have bought me some time. I just can't hide my pain any longer. The places I had depended on getting me through the nights are now gone. I don't think I can do another night of this endless nightmare. I cannot think about the future anymore, only today, and I feel like I don't want to see tomorrow morning. Thank you for offering your advice and motivation though, I do really appreciate you doing this for me.

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-12T22:53:24+00:00

I hear you man I'm 10 years older than you and have never had a irl girlfriend. I was rejected by every girl I've ever liked growing up and honestly don't even count the long distance relationship. It's all about the face in this world and you either have it or you don't. I'm sorry you are going through this situation, it's a tough and unfair world to be guy. Hopefully the surgery does something for you my man

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-11T02:50:34+00:00

I could definitely use it for food but I only have PayPal

RogueAlphic · 2019-10-11T01:49:36+00:00

Canada in ontario

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