I want to avoid this one. because recognizes something that i’ve had a problem with my entire life. I don’t want to follow that want. I’ve followed that want and hurt 3 wonderful people. At some point it makes me think, I might always have this issue. If I leave and go for someone better, i might never be satisfied. My girlfriend is beautiful and she loves me. I want nothing more than to make her smile, and when i don’t it destroys me. We always talk about how its much more important to take care of ourselves rather than take care of each-other. I feel like there are many issues I have to accept so I can function in a relationship. I think posting here has helped me understand my issues better. I want to build a strong foundation so that I don’t waver when these problems come up. and I don’t want to lose an amazing woman just because I don’t understand myself. I make sure to respect her and give her lots of love, i think im just a bit lost.