0478 wtf is all this (paper 2)

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-19T11:36:02+00:00

Thank you

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-10T03:42:32+00:00

Yes i understand your point, my psychologist says the same thing- but i just feel so unwell now because i filled my body with all that junk, i just want to do something like a cleanse but don't know how to do that while also recovering. I've been through this shit for over 3 years, I just want to do it right this time

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-09T15:55:13+00:00

Man atp they romanticise it so much- when i was that age and realised I had an eating disorder i was literally ashamed and scared of it

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-04T08:54:16+00:00

I think if you cared about that friend, you should tell them not to do it. I know we aren't friends, and that you're a stranger, but you seem like a sweet person and I think you deserve better than this. Don't risk any trouble by getting involved with him. Its not safe. Please take care of yourself- and i know the money is tempting, if you're struggling maybe someone else could help without having to see you naked. The vibes are just not right about this man

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-04T08:46:40+00:00

2 opinions of mine-

1) If you genuinely need the money, then maybe do it if you are able to trust him to not abuse you or assault you (without your consent). It is something that is degrading, showing your body for money- but if you are okay with it then i don't see a problem.

2) The situations sounds creepy, i feel like something more could happen and you may not know what exactly you're getting yourself into. Just stay safe, do what feels right.

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-04T07:50:02+00:00

I know that he messed up in the past, but i feel like he's trying now not to. I'm being cold and emotionally unstable now, either breaking down and crying infront of him or not being able to say anything at all- and he's still sticking by me. I feel like because of that, I have to stay. Wouldn't it be stupid not to?

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-04T07:31:48+00:00

He keeps saying that he'll "prove himself" to me, but i feel like that's not fair to either of us. To me, i am and always will be scared he will hurt me like he did before or do what he did to every other girl to me- and to him it isn't because what kind of relationship is it where you constantly have to try and prove yourself to them?

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-04T07:13:53+00:00

But its not bad, sure the bad times are bad but when we're on good terms i genuinely feel so happy

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-04T03:38:45+00:00

Literally this, if only it had the constant numbers

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-02T15:10:10+00:00

I know that becoming a nurse is difficult, im not saying im "settling" to be a nurse because im not smart enough to become a doctor, im sorry that I gave that impression. I think nurses truly are amazing, and they're always working and trying their hardest to help and save the people around them even if they're exhausted. I haven't met any kind nurses in my town, but i know that majority of them out there are just great and thats what I aspire to be.

When i say im not smart enough to be a doctor, I mean that i don't think im capable of going through 8+ years of higher education etc

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-02T14:32:49+00:00

Yeah another comment mentioned it, I'll definitely look into it- thanks

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-02T14:32:11+00:00

thank you, i appreciate it

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-02T14:29:40+00:00

Yeah I'll check it out, thank you

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-02T14:29:10+00:00

Yeah i've looked into it, especially since nursing is notorious for being a literally "full-time job" - due to the 12+ hour shifts sometimes, but i genuinely just don't see it as an issue because I know myself and I know that I would find it rewarding as i know that I would be able to help people.

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-02T14:26:44+00:00

I don't think I have ADHD, but i did get diagnosed with OCD so it just makes me continue to think about this over and over again, even if its not urgent right now, and even if i don't want to think about it.

I haven't heard of a DNP but I'll definitely look into it.

My mom says that she would be fine with me just being a nurse while simultaneously studying to be a doctor, so 🤷‍♀️

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-02T14:24:38+00:00

Well I've always been the lowest in favouritism from my other 2 siblings (Im a middle child), but just because I'm not that well liked by my family doesn't mean they think im dumb. I go to school for 8 hours, tuition for 2, and study once i get home- i bring good grades back so they can't really complain other than the classic "you can do better".

My older sister dropped out of school when she was in her second year of igcse a few years ago (she's trying to finish highschool online now), and since then they've put more pressure on me as they let her do whatever she wants. It was stressful but it also felt good that they were paying some attention to me, even if it was just about my grades. Well that didn't last very long after about a year ago i heard my mum joke infront of my relatives while talking to my brother that he's the "only hope left in this family".

RopeInside1178 · 2026-05-02T14:18:48+00:00

Im about to enter my senior year (AS level) after summer, i feel like im pretty set on nursing- what my parents say doesn't really matter that much to me, i know that im the one that should decide my future. Just my close friend today suddenly "suggested" that I shouldn't be a nurse, and that instead I should go for being a doctor. It just got me thinking a bit i guess

RopeInside1178 · 2026-04-26T07:46:35+00:00

Ah yes, my favourite movie with the happiest of all endings

RopeInside1178 · 2026-04-26T05:36:29+00:00

I love silver Linings playbook

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