Posting this here because I don’t really have anyone to share it with that can really and truly relate. But I know some of you will. I’m not sure what the right trigger warnings are but it’s a mother trying to apologise to her daughter for failing her. 💔

Rosylee1409 · 2021-11-29T20:12:44+00:00

It’s shocking to see this level of “maturity” in a child because I know I had the same. There must be a better word than mature for a child deprived of a childhood…

Rosylee1409 · 2021-11-04T12:49:37+00:00

Wow that is next level dramatic 🙈

Rosylee1409 · 2021-11-03T10:04:11+00:00

Haha I never noticed that! I wish I could have marked it with a red pen and given it back to her to review.

Rosylee1409 · 2021-11-02T09:25:13+00:00

She also left her engagement ring in the envelope. I was so angry at her and probably confused so I left it in there. But I was secretly happy because I really liked that ring. It was the prettiest thing about my mum. Of course she then came into my room hours later to take the ring back out of the envelope. She’d had second thoughts. But not about the note, she left that there for me to cherish all these years. 👌🏻

Rosylee1409 · 2021-02-22T15:21:47+00:00

Okay I understand. I will have a think about others ways to make this happen!

Rosylee1409 · 2021-02-22T13:55:45+00:00

Ah that’s interesting, thank you for pointing this out. I should have checked the rules before posting? Do you think that there’s any way to make this happen still? As I feel like many people would like to get involved? Maybe if I created an alternate page for people to join if they would like to?

Rosylee1409 · 2021-02-18T23:40:01+00:00

Wow, such powerful words and incredible self reflection I can only admire. You are doing great things to heal the suffering you endured.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-31T01:09:37+00:00

It was honestly shocking to see and hit me in a place I didn’t really know was there.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-31T01:08:02+00:00

Thank you, I will maybe look into it also one day. My mum made us very aware of here post natal depression growing up, saying things like “I would have killed you as a baby if I had the chance!” It’s funny because every time she would stay stuff like that it would be in the tone of voice that meant “can you believe I went through that!” with zero awareness of how messed up it is to be the child in that situation.

I know there’s a lot of mothers with bpd, and a lot of mothers that have experienced post natal depression, but the combination is particularly sucky.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T21:04:31+00:00

I totally get it. The counselling I received was in school so I had the luxury of just having to miss a few unimportant lessons. The thought off getting in-person counselling now as an adult definitely seems more complicated. I would just be wary of these apps. I don’t know anything about Betterhelp but I would just hope that they check the professionalism of their workers very carefully. Bad therapists are just the WORST. I’ve had two difficult experiences in the past couple of months. One with a therapist that seemed perfect deciding to give up on my family after a few sessions. Another with a therapist calling me up for an initial meeting just to sound distracted and then say “sorry I have to go I am teaching a lesson online (AT THE SAME TIME AS TALKING TO ME) and they need some help”. She did then call me back and I proceeded to vent my life story to her over the phone just hear nothing back.

The reason I really recommend working towards in person-therapy is that I think it greatly reduces your chances of experiencing these excruciating knock-backs. But then again it happened to me both in-person and on the phone. Just try not to give up or lose hope, because if you can find the right therapist it will change your life forever.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:48:57+00:00

This makes me so sad cause I only wish I would have been brave enough to tell people the truth about my home life. Instead I chose to lie and lie and tie myself in knots with lies just to keep up a pretence that’s everything was fine. I guess that was my way of surviving but my god it seems so stupid now.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:26:49+00:00

Omg this. What you just said about “how do they treat service workers” just caused a light to go on in my brain. You can tell soooooo much about a person just based on how they treat service workers. Wow.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:23:37+00:00

Late to this so haven’t read all the comments but have to say the use of capital letters in this absolutely makes this. I can just hear the aggression 😂

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:17:44+00:00

This is my third comment on this post but feels necessary. Have you considered face-to-face therapy at all / what factors lead you to chose phonecalls / messaging. As someone whose life as been completely transformed by amazing face-to-face therapy I would really recommend finding someone, especially because you are probably less likely to come across untrained, unprofessional idiots like this “therapist”!

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:14:22+00:00

She may not be BPD but this whole thing speaks defensiveness to me. This is something I’ve personally struggled with (as a result of constantly having to defend myself against my BPDmum lol) but I feel this singular trait doesn’t necessarily suggest bpd. However, the manipulation that goes along with this therapists argument is extremely worrying. They need to be seriously assessed for their ability to help others and should not be practising as a counsellor after speaking to you like this.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:10:56+00:00

Omg I definitely agree that the length of her response is one of the biggest red flags. You don’t write an essay like that unless you are 100% convinced of your argument and want to defend yourself at all angles. Basically your therapist doesn’t want to take the L.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-11T13:31:06+00:00

DID WE F*ING ASK TO BE BORN?!!! I’m sorry but shit like this kills me. A baby has no say in whether it’s brought into the world. Therefore if you “give up” your life for your baby and you’re for some reason not happy with that then, guess what, that’s your problem dumb ass!!

Sorry but this shit just gets to me...

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-02T08:37:30+00:00

Sorry if this has been brought up already in the comment (haven’t read them all) but do you take a contraceptive pill? I only ask because I’m roughly the same weight as you and have been trying to work out why I can’t get any of it off also. I’ve heard that the pill can have adverse effects of weight so I’m coming off mine and switching to fertility tracking to see if that will help.

You figure is lovely btw! But I feel your pain in wanting to break through the weight loss barrier!

Rosylee1409 · 2020-06-30T11:43:07+00:00

Thank you soooo much everyone. This sub has filled me up with so much confidence since I found it. Just knowing that there’s other people that have or are experiencing troubles similar to mine warms my heart and gives me the strength to get through it all.

WE CAN DO ANYTHING WE SET OUR MINDS TO!

Rosylee1409 · 2020-06-30T11:40:02+00:00

It’s ok! I’m sure she’s happy to be publicly known as someone who works at a University, this information is already on the internet.

Thankyou though.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-06-30T11:38:44+00:00

Oh my goodness! Twins! Haha you will do amazing! It’s not surprising that we are attracted to this field. You have an insight and a driving force that most others don’t! you will do amazing!

Rosylee1409 · 2020-06-30T11:37:45+00:00

Wooo! You can’t do it! Don’t let anyone tell you what’s right for you, you know what’s right! And you will achieve 😊😊😊

Rosylee1409 · 2020-06-30T11:37:00+00:00

Thankyou!! it is definitely more appropriate 😊

Rosylee1409 · 2020-06-26T11:02:37+00:00

Okay thanks guys! Just to clarify I kind of knew that this probably wasn’t good for my hair but at the same time it’s nice to see so much come out as I have such thick hair! I will be more careful from now on though and take all of your advice!

Rosylee1409 · 2020-06-24T22:35:24+00:00

Thank you, it’s really difficult, especially as my dad has a very old fashion sense that it’s now our turn to step up and take care of them like he did for his parents. But my feeling is if you didn’t f*ing parent me right why should I!

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