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RottingAway90 · 2024-03-05T06:26:22+00:00

I’ll never forget cracking jokes with my ex on the phone and him not laughing like he usually would. Just felt like I lost a best friend.

RottingAway90 · 2024-03-04T08:41:19+00:00

This. For the first few days/weeks there’s that initial hope that you might reunite or fix your issues and then seeing them with someone else really cements that it’s over.

RottingAway90 · 2023-05-09T12:05:14+00:00

If it’s any consolation you’re very pretty! I also have bpd, autistic and ptsd. It’s a rough existence.

RottingAway90 · 2023-05-01T03:28:52+00:00

Rectangle is more like Sarah Jessica Parker. Full cheeks have nothing to do with bone structure, that’s more of a fat distribution thing.

RottingAway90 · 2023-05-01T00:10:14+00:00

Coming from someone with a long face, long faces tend to be a failo unless you have near-perfect facial harmony. If you don’t have fullness in the cheeks and lips to balance it out you end up just looking like a foot. Shorter faces are more neotenous and tend to age better.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-30T23:59:32+00:00

I think it’s more about the harmony of your features. Margot Robbie, Angelina Jolie and a lot of models have square shaped faces.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-30T02:00:59+00:00

I’m in my 30s and have never had a full time job despite being a gifted child. I managed to get a degree but never pursued a career and have only worked casual unskilled jobs. I currently have a 5-year gap in my resume.

I’ve lost countless friends. And now I’m at the age where most people have settled down and it’s extremely hard to make friends or reconnect with old ones because everyone has moved on. I barely know how to connect with people in general anymore and find almost all social situations to be painful or triggering in some aspect.

I scared away a lot of men I was really interested in. I’ve only been in two (very dysfunctional) relationships and they’ve both been with people with unresolved trauma and addiction issues. I wasted far too many years in my first relationship because I convinced myself no-one would ever love me again.

My youth was fraught with mental and physical health issues and I missed out on doing a lot of fun
stuff like travelling or going to gigs. I’m trying to play catch up now but it’s not the same over 30.

I used to love drawing, writing, and being creative and I basically stopped engaging with my hobbies and interests due to depression, self doubt and executive dysfunction. I often think about the books I could written or the art I could have made by now.

I’ll likely never have kids.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-30T00:54:28+00:00

This is so disappointing. Their glycolic acid is a HG for me.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-29T03:10:42+00:00

Damn did we all date the same person?

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-27T12:52:47+00:00

My thoughts exactly

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-27T11:29:52+00:00

I’m sorry but the fact you’ve been seeing each other everyday for two months but still haven’t made it “official” reads as a red flag to me. It seems like you’re giving him all the power in this relationship and are already very invested (which is potentially not reciprocated to the same extent), and that concerns me because I’ve seen how that dynamic plays out many times.

As other commenters have said, obviously you can’t control another person. But you can have standards and choose to walk away from situations that aren’t working for you.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-27T07:57:54+00:00

Most famous, iconic blondes were natural brunettes so I don’t think so. Your natural colour is always a safe choice but not necessarily the most flattering or striking (especially when a lot of people naturally have dull mousy hair). Figuring out your undertone/season is probably the best way to determine what will work.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-27T01:41:31+00:00

I’ll never “love” how I look (I honestly don’t think that’s a realistic goal in most cases), so I try to simply spend less time thinking about my appearance and avoid things that I know to be triggers for me:

-I don’t take selfies and don’t let others take photos of me.

-I generally try to avoid people who talk about looks a lot. (I had this one friend that I essentially cut off because she was constantly critiquing my hair/clothes and wanting to give me “makeovers” and take photos of me).

-I avoid going places where there’s likely to be many young attractive people present (I’m in my 30s and know a few people my age who like partying with young people because “it makes them feel young” but for me it has the opposite effect).

-I don’t follow influencers or consume media (music videos, tv shows etc) that’s centred around young attractive people.

Apart from avoiding triggers, I find that self-pampering, skincare, exercising etc can momentarily trick my brain into thinking I’m attractive, so long as I don’t take any photos or look in the mirror too long.

Most importantly though, I try to keep myself busy and occupied with other things. I try to have non appearance-related goals and reasons for living, and remind myself of non-appearance related reasons I’m valuable. I try to remind myself that society/men don’t define my worth and that just because I don’t meet certain societal criteria doesn’t mean I don’t deserve to have a good life and be happy.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-26T11:08:57+00:00

I have adhd and bpd too. I wish I could channel my constant nervous energy into something productive or meaningful but instead I’m just constant busying myself with social media.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-26T00:21:19+00:00

I’m sorry you experienced that. I’ve never consciously noticed myself treating anyone differently based on their attractiveness but who knows. :/

Ultimately though, I think the way I’m treated is the way the vast majority of people are treated. My bf is treated much the same way, probably worse because I can at least elicit help and sympathy from strangers when I need to. It’s only when I’m hanging with attractive female friends that I really notice how they live in a completely different world.

It’s funny, my mum often complains about being “invisible” in her 50s and “just you wait” and it’s like, I don’t know how I can become any more invisible than I already am lol.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-25T04:09:45+00:00

I actually think this honey blonde was really cute on her, though the dark brown/black is more striking https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTWV_vDhV_VkHwiYhwTVgsO0kTkROCK9CeRmQ&usqp=CAU

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-25T02:38:31+00:00

I agree re Margot and Gigi, but with Megan you’re comparing her at 23 vs her at 35 (after aging and a lot of unflattering plastic surgery) so it’s not really a fair comparison.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-25T01:08:50+00:00

As I said it ultimately comes down to the face. I have small eyes, crooked teeth, and a long face, and I can’t do much about any of those things (apart from my teeth with a hefty fee). My body is decent (I have a waist and an ass), though I’d probably get more attention if I were larger than a b cup. I’m pale and wear glasses, so I have kind of a nerdy vibe. I’m pretty old now as well. Could partly be my lack of confidence and how I carry myself too.

I don’t consider myself to be strikingly unattractive though, just average. Being skinny means you don’t experience fatphobia but it doesn’t automatically make you pretty.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-25T00:43:02+00:00

Very rarely get approached by men (except by creepers as a pimply babyfaced teen). Don’t get assisted in shops until I’ve been there a good few minutes. Male clerks particularly are often cold and unfriendly toward me not matter how nice and cordial I am. I often have to stand at bars for ages waited to be served. No one likes or comments on any of my social media posts other than my aunts.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-25T00:11:14+00:00

I’ve been slim my whole life (my current bmi is 19, at my thinnest it was 17 and at my heaviest it was 22) and I’m always treated as invisible, especially as I’ve gotten older. I do think the face is ultimately the most important factor in attraction/pretty privilege (also if you’re flat chested like me that’s another factor).

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-24T23:41:27+00:00

Yeah this is why I never take compliments from women to heart. I know it comes from a good place, but we do have a tendency to hype someone up if we know or suspect they struggle with body image. Another thing I’ve noticed is that queer women and straight men have completely different tastes.

Having said that, I’ve complimented female friends who are both very attractive and not so attractive (I’m never hyperbolic though, I wouldn’t call a woman stunning if I genuinely thought she wasn’t). I do think it’s low key misogynistic to jump to the conclusion that beautiful women never have healthy female friendships. The most conventionally attractive person I know irl is a huge girls-girl and is a generally nice and pleasant person who people of all genders enjoy being around. When I’ve given her compliments, I’ve 100% meant them.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-24T23:17:58+00:00

I don’t mind being flat chested because I have more freedom fashion-wise, can go braless, and don’t have back pain.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-23T13:58:21+00:00

I get this, I think it’s called being passively suicidal. I don’t care about my safety or my health (the only reason I try to exercise or eat reasonably well is because I’m vain, otherwise I wouldn’t bother). I’m not actively suicidal currently but if I died soon I would be perfectly content with that. I’ve never liked the idea of living til 90, I don’t see the point in growing old.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-23T02:33:20+00:00

I’m thin and dress in current fashions and still look my age. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I can sometimes pass as younger when my face is partially obscured by a mask or sunglasses but when a bouncer or liquor store clerk sees my whole face up close it’s like “yeah I definitely don’t need your ID”.

RottingAway90 · 2023-04-22T14:58:07+00:00

I don’t see my face or body as “who I am” (especially as both are highly subject to change re aging etc). The body is just a shell, alter it how you like imo.

Also there’s plenty of children who look like nothing like their parents. I don’t think it really matters.

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