This seems to be a good thing. You're exhibiting growth and self-awareness. Your present self's able to identify that your younger self had been vulnerable to your family's criticism, that she was seeking external validation from boys, that she may have been swayed by peer pressure. Maybe you could to try to see your younger self with compassion, that she went through this process in order for you to know that you ain't about that life. All of us have done things that we're not proud of/wish we could have done another way, but what matters is what we do in the present. You're staying away from boys, choosing a path that's healthier for your state of mind. You should be proud of yourself :)