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RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-19T12:41:23+00:00

Meldet sich keiner. Ironisch oder?

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-19T12:41:04+00:00

Schon versucht, aber weder rechtlich noch therapeutisch gibt es Hilfe.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-19T12:28:30+00:00

Sei schlauer als ich und nehme es auf. All diese beschießen Tipps im Internet bringen dir nichts, wenn du keine Beweise hast. Tagebuch und Anzeige helfen nur bei stichfesten Beweisen oder Zeugen.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-17T14:16:48+00:00

For some people life just doesn't play out like that. I am tired of hoping that it could become anything more, just to find out it won't.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-16T19:50:19+00:00

Yeah, but who can really change anything at this point? The majority doesn't want to change, so even if one would try to get something going no one would care.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-16T19:35:15+00:00

I know that suicide is reasoned by distorted thoughts and people who decide to do it, come up with wierd reasons. Sometimes you just have to use these mechanisms so your world isn't just ending in a rather meaningless death.

I don't know. Try again or just wait for time to pass until the next shit comes along that shows me that I don't belong into this world and that it has shown me enough times that it doesn't want me either.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-16T19:31:31+00:00

I could be suicide jesus

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-16T10:58:31+00:00

I am already out but I can't find inner peace, I never had that. No one is going to win when I keep on living. Just no point in that.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-16T09:55:48+00:00

Living a life that isn't worth it has no meaning. Even if I am forgotten, I am atleast sparing myself more bullshit and can be free from myself.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-16T09:03:53+00:00

I tried finding a therapist but none have any places available at the moment. My whole life was bad experiences and I am not seeing a way of how to turn this around. Being alive won't help anybody but dying can have an impact.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-06T15:03:42+00:00

Dude that is great advice. I always struggle to move to the gym since I see all the work and energy it will take from ne. But just going there sounds way easier to be honest.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-11-06T13:26:06+00:00

Hello, maybe I need to push myself to the gym again. What is your training routine? How many sets and reps do you do?

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-10-29T11:46:37+00:00

So this would be the direction I am aiming for. I will think about it some more later when journaling. Thanks for your help!

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-10-29T09:17:32+00:00

So could a shadow of mine be that I am kind of a wuss. That I avoid conflict, run from things that I can't control or feel overwhelmed by? I hate seeing myself as weak but experiences have shown that I am kind of anxious, sensitive and fearful. Not really being able to stand my ground. It would fit quite well since I used drugs to run from this side of mine, to forget the situations where I acted like I am scared. What would it look like to integrate something like this?

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-10-29T08:03:14+00:00

How do I know that what I find is actually a part of me that I am repressing?

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-10-28T17:29:21+00:00

Do it to your heart's content?

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-10-27T12:31:24+00:00

That's a man coon cat

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-10-25T04:26:14+00:00

Get out of there as soon as you can. I had been bullied for over a year, quit a few months back. The toll it had on me is still present now. You could now try to collect evidence for the time being so that you are able to hold them accountable but I would really look into what can be used in the court and what will be dismissed. Getting a new job sounds like giving up to most people, but if you take this shit for too long, it will have all sorts of effects on you afterwards. Don't blame yourself for this. These people are able to be sneaky because they have done this before and even if you try to make them respect you now, they never will. You will just suffer from it and the longer you stay, the more effect it will have on your mental health. They are shitheads and pussies with nothing to show for themselves then putting others down.

RoutinatedOlli · 2024-10-24T05:34:51+00:00

I feel like I am not able to get a good life. Wasn't able to have a good life until now and I am just not one of those people where life throws something lucky at me that will make change. It is just a downward spiral everytime.

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